ThE MIsTAke OF GOd

Sad..=(

2011-12-09T13:41:00.003+08:00

when we grow older, we see things more clearly and there will be more decision to make.. is sad to see my grandpa getting older and older, weaker and weaker, is sad to see that our family is having tons of problems because of some small arguement tat is not even important tat only concern bout face prob.. is sad to know tat all the kind and love tat i used to hv when i was young are just fake face that wan to show out and let others see ...=(.. OH IT WAS SAD....=( but i dun care anymore... all i need to do now.. is to be nice to my family and let them be happy tats all i can do...

P.S. i miss you grandma..=')

after a year...=))

2011-12-07T01:25:00.003+08:00

After a year.. wow... is been a year since i blog.. hmmm.. is even longer den the one piece waiting time hehe.. well a year is not tat long yet is not very short either.. many thing changes, people changes... u changed i changed... as we grow older.. more and more problems we hav to face .. but tats life the only thing we can do is accept it and solve the problems.. hehe..=) so in the great year ahead .. i wish tat everything will be very smooth and steady for all of us...=)

my new bunch of crazy, fun , nice , handsome , pretty, super cute frens.. i love them like hell.. without them my uni life willbe miserable... hahaha.. love u guys and we will hv more and more outings and do freaking lots of crazy stuffs tgt..=)

P.S. I LOVE U <3<3<3<3<3 ...=)

exam exam EXAMSSSS!!!!!

2010-12-01T23:42:00.002+08:00

SHIT!!!! is exam period again liao... stressful!!! i just study finish a small part of econs and my brain jam liao.. i stare at the same page for half an hour and din know wat was i reading.... arghhhhh!!!! y do we need to go through these??? sometimes i was thinking it will be better that we return back to life thousand years ago .. where everyone farm ... that time everything was so simple... so peaceful so nice..... maybe our world is improving too fast and there maybe a new start during 2012... 2012 may not be the end ... maybe it is the new start for human or shld i say homo sapiens.... to realise tat simple life would probably be better den having high tech but with no humanities...... 知足常乐，人类需要明白这个道理，不然环境污染，战争将会不断的发生。。

突然发现我的中文退步了哦。。。哈哈哈哈哈。。。

发泄完了，继续读书咯！！！

ThE MIsTAke OF GOd: A lOVe SonG#links

2010-11-09T03:06:00.000+08:00

ThE MIsTAke OF GOd: A lOVe SonG#links

back to life...=))))

2010-11-09T02:44:00.002+08:00

well well well.. the blog has came back to life... lol.. is been long time since i last post .. wasnt having any feeling to post anything last few months... hehe.. but now i am back.... cause i am too free i think haha.. late at nite.. 3 am still not slping well guess wat.. this is uni life hehehehe..=))...woohoo man is in uni finally haha.. well staying in hostel making new frens.. interesting ppl interesting life makes me wanna know more here.... heee... with lots of temptation and fun stuff i really need to find balance for my study and play... hee i hope i will do well in my first sem here.. i really hope so... so i am starting my engine and puting NOS on it now is time to prepare for my exam in 5 wks time hehe.. well lets talk bout my first moment here.. hee there was a very very society here name MSA malaysian student association... which gather all the malaysian students and makes them a big family hehe... i join the FOC camp they did and it was awesomely fun heee.. and i am still staying in this big family until now....the bonding is very strong..which i cannot decribe with words.. hehe here is the family photos of us DRACHMANssss!!! hehe we rocksssss!!!!

We been through many stages in our life, uni is a path that we must precious the most, cause it maybe the last stage that we can enjoy before we move in to the working life... i am having lots of fun here... wat bout u all??? hehehe..=)))

although there is endless fun here but i really shld get back on track on my studies... really i need some motivation plsss... haha... i need to start mugging tat is wat i been telling myself for the past few days... well i will do my best and leave no regrets... i wish i will not screw up my life here.. wish every of the ones i known to be happy and healthy always... and be grateful of everything that we r having now..=)))..知足常乐=)))

WOW......

2010-06-30T01:31:00.002+08:00

wow is been a while... i am just too lazy to update anything since there isnt anything fun happening in my life recently ... all those happenings are about money, quarrelling.. lost.... bla bla bla... damn.... well bad things happen through out our life.. my mom taught me tat when u encounter any of these things... u nid to stand firm on ur own thinking... well i did tat....haha... but i still feel sad.... there isnt right or wrong about anything in life.... is just whr u stand.... to me i just believe in myself... and i hv my own thinking .... those who dun understand dun come and interupt me.. let me live my own life... let me enjoy my short term life that i will leave no regrets behind... let me be myself... let me be happy so tat i can bring happiness to everyone ard me.... everytime i was call to make a wish.... the only thing i wish is that me and everyone i known will live happily forever.. but is our world that is the hardest thing to achieve... will there be one day tat everyone is contain with wat they hv and live happily ... ignore about improving lifestyle , ignore bout how much education u can get.. ignore everything and be contain.. and stay happy.... i hope tat day will come.. but i doubt it will come.. cause human r always "not enough"... they hv this.. they wan more.. human r still human.. lalalalala~~~

To my BEloved GrandmA...=)

2010-04-23T01:04:00.004+08:00

This will be a boring post but it willl be very very meaningful to me and my family... cause is about my beloved grandma... she just passed away last month... on the 25 of MARCH 2010... just saw some photos of passed CNY... hmm miss her... the photo below is the last QUAN JIA FU we taken.. hmmm nice rite.. haiz...is gonna be very precious to me, us... my grandma... hmmm the last word i say to her is i will be back in 2 wks.. but after 2 wks i am back.. but she is not dere waiting me liao... hmmm no more her warm welcoming when i back.. no more my favourite food cook by her... only left the lonely silent sound and my tears dropping sound... hmmm.. i really regret y i wasnt there with her to walk her last path ... hmmm haizzzz..... sad sad sad.... i really hope she can see my success , my family and my children..... i wna my kids to know i hv a wonderful grandma .... i wan her to enjoy her life longer... hmmmm...... the worst thing is .. when i heard the news... i cant cry.. cause.. i forgot how to cry.. haiz..... until i reach home.. i breakdown... hmm well everyone breakdown... hmmm i miss her laughter,.... i miss her voice... i miss her cooking... i miss her care... i miss her nagging ... i miss her... hmmm... 樹欲靜而風不止、子欲養而親不在... now i really know the meaning .... i swear i will treat my family better now...=).... cause i dun wan to regret..=)

FAMILY = Father And Mother I Love You.....=) this is wat family means...=)

The END??? of all??

2010-03-06T18:17:00.003+08:00

Hmmm, the world is changing... earthquake, flood, tornado bla bla bla... the earth itself is changing its shape... hmmm just watched a video of a killer wave hits a cruise... the wave is 26ft tall and it shake the cruise like toy boat... wow... wth is happening?? is the end really coming?? is it real tat 2012 will be the end of all?? hmmm u can really feel it... take a simple example... will the weather be so so so damn hot 10 yrs back??? it wont... but it is like freaking hot until i am on fire!!! ... the world is changing truly.. lets hope mankind will survive this disaster...=).... if the shape of the world will change... i hope it will change into the world in "One Piece"....=)...Den i can go sailing... pirate or not i dun care.. i wna freedom on sea!!! woohoo... tat shld be fun..=) but but but.. lets just precious wat we hv now... love our family, frens and love ones.... hv some real quality time with them... dun leave any regrets.... not one..... or maybe jsut one or a few...=)

" ONE PIECE.. is out dere!!!!!" said by White Beard the legendary pirate... he is the 2nd pirate king i assume..=)

Gong Xi Gong Xi FA da Cai!!!

2010-02-21T00:52:00.003+08:00

woohoo... juat passed CNY still in holiday mood yet exam is ard the corner... monday !!! lol.. sien... still havent play enuff.. still havent drink enuff with my frens.. still havent talk enuff.. still havent spend quality time with my laopo ... noooo... den everything ends le.. haiz.... sibei sien... hee... but but but.. stilll i had a wonderful CNY with lots lots of FOOD and lots lots of fun .. lol.. some photos..=).... i love CNY.. thanks mommy for the big feast thanks daddy for the preparation... thanks everyone for keeping me high...=X...hee.. but now is time to pack up and start studying... hee.. hope i can do well in this final ... pray for me everyone...LOL..=)

the BIG WEDDING...=)

2009-10-05T18:29:00.005+08:00

On Sept 20 2009... (20 09 2009) a wedding was held in Prime City Hotel.. it is the big event of our Phang family .. because it is the wedding of our eldest cousin, Clifton's wedding...who is now currently staying in US, is been a while since i last seen him =).. grandpa and grandma had been waiting for this moment for decade .. hee .. This is the most complete family group photo (全家福) since 2000 .. pretty nice ya.. hee.. event like this will bring all those "long time no see" relatives gather together sit down and chat.. updating each other about their current situation, chatting about childhood time ... very very nice ... everyone is happy and enjoying the moment there..

cuz and his wife eating durian hee.. his wife is from Taiwan .. and he has been in US for too long and he misses the food here.. lol..

Long long long time no see...=)

2009-09-03T09:56:00.003+08:00

SA~SHi~dO~Bu~rI~..."kuzo"... long time no see hee ... finally finish my internship at GIS-A*STAR.. is been a long long 4 and a half month... is very very suffering in the real world working life, everyday 9-6, den cannot take leave without valid reasons.. not like in school dun feel like goin den can take MC ... sien ... i was working in a R&D lab, researching on a protein name Mash1 which is important on our brain structure and CNS... cool stuff man.. hee.. been learning all about it for the past four months , what is it? what is it function?how to make it?how to purify it?how to crystallize it? etc etc... After working in R&D lab i finally know wat they mean by R&D is boring, cause u will be doing the same thing over and over again den there wont be a promising result.. so sometimes it will be very depressing.. but my supervisor and student guidance there have this some sort of passion.. they never giv up no matter how depressing they are.. when i was getting bad results they still support me with full strength and giv me the courage to move on... nice right... i really appreciate that.. i thanked them for all their teaching, all their knowledge. all their encouragement, all their experience and so.. from this internship i really learn a lot.. i think i hv grown up a lil mentally i hope lol.. hee now after finishing i am waiting for my final presentation in school for grading i hope i do well... but most importantly now i wan to have my breaks .. i wan to go home meet my frens and eat all sort of food from the ramadan pasar malam... sweet... hee i am feeling hungry already hee... woohoo...

there is another thing in my mind too... after another half a yr my poly time will be over, no more relaxing life for me, either i am goin uni or i will be working ... hmmm wat shall i do ... facing such big turning point.. hmmm is time to plan for my future now.. hmm i dun even know wat shall i choose for uni.. i dun even know will i get into uni.. if i dun wat shall i do?? work?? but work as wat?? wat sort of works can be found in this bad economy time period?? confuse confuse??? hmmm so no point thinking so much now ... when time comes things will get smooth...(at least this is how i am comforting myself now hee)..=)

P.S. my dear laopo jiayou on ur trial exam o.. hee.. gambateh neh.. dun too stress out.. rmb the most important thing is still the final STPM... as long as u know u will 100% do well in tat den is fine will all other things... =)

with that sayonara min nah... good luck.. =)

Labour day , MOthers DAY , NiCky BDae... haha =) part 2

2009-05-04T22:31:00.003+08:00

Here we go !!! who's in the house?? NICKY in the HOUSE!!! WHO's IN the HOuse?? NIcKY in the HOUSE!!!! LOL... haha .. this is nicholas my cousin fren from sg.. and he celebrate his 21st bdae here in klg .. in my house.. with my family haha... great stuff.. haha....HAPPY BDAE NICKY!!!!..hope u enjoyed the party.. hee =).. (below r some photos from the party.. hee.)

Zhui Pei and me... :- nice food ... the soup sweet until one level liao .. godlike ah.. haha..=)

Nicky and my grandparents... hee look how happy they are.. they like suddenly have one more grandchildren like tat haha..opss=)

Eh Jinyang dun keep eating leh .. Wei En also laugh at u liao lo .. lol .. save some for us la.. haha jkjk... =X

Labour day , MOthers DAY , NiCky BDae... haha =) part 1

2009-05-04T22:08:00.007+08:00

Big happy family ..=)

Went back Klg last weekend to celebrate Mother's Day in advance.. nice and happy weekend .. wonderful food .. wonderful enjoyment... haha.. here r some photos.. hee..=)

pic 1:- my cute and sweet and nice ah ma cutting the cake hee.. =)
pic 2:- my beloved mother join in to the cutting cake ceremony .. haha..i love u mommy and ah ma... happy mothers day.. hee..=)
pic 3:- Me: "Wat is this ?? let me try it... hee.. AAAA...=x"
Kai:"Liang , wat u eating??"
JinYang:"Hey.. when is my turn??? haha.."
pic 4(below):- Dad on the run haha.. that is my grandpa in law motorcycle.. cool right haha
pic 5: Father and son... look alike ya... haha..=)
pic 6: Son on the run too haha.. opss ... my bro on the motor.. hee the helmet too small lah.. haha..=)

Attachment.....

2009-04-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

Currently having my attachment in GIS(Genome Institute of Singapore), all i can say is, it answered my question about how scientists work..... is basically just doing experiment, but is quite different with the lab that we did in school cause in school all the things will be prepared by the teacher or lab workers.. but in real life we wil need to prepare all those ourselves.. those buffer, running gels , and all those things.. and after that is basically doing experiment, centrifuge, incubate, cooling down, washing... bla bla bla .. den do test test test .. get result, analysis bla bla bla... and that is it.. ... lol...that is what i am doing now... haha... is quite boring actually but if u get the result that u wanted... u will get the sense of successfulness... and that feels good.. but if u fail den HAHA.... the suffering part is the waiting time and the journey to the results.. IT KILLS... opss haha.... and the working period is not set also is maybe from 9am till very very late at night or it can be very very early in the afternoon .. it all depends on the project u worked on and how u plan ur day...(AND BACTERIA STINKS)... there is a kind of funny funny smell that stinks and i feel like vomiting if i smell it too long..
well good luck about my project..and happy working..=)

PS:Laopo dun be too stressful on ur coming test k ... jiayou jiayou jiayou ... Bby love u .. will always support u .. hee... concentrate on what u wan and ur goals... other matters .. just put it aside first... hee jiayou o .. muacks muacks hee giv u support kiss hee bler..=)

鱼与熊掌

2009-04-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

School will be starting in few weeks time .. actually is only 2 more wks haha.. hmmm as usual din do much this holi... back to hometown klg slack here.. surviving from "HUNGER" because my ah gong dun let us eat much .. so each meal i only will hv 2 mouth full of rice and a little bit of veggie and toufu .. and tats all.... i am suffering .. lol .. den laopo had been very sad and angry since she got her test result cause she din do very well ... she been very hardworking lately .. tats gd for her hee .. hope she will get wat she wan .. hee all i wna for her is just she must be happy tats all hee.. i will be quite busy when sch start hee i suppose .. next sem will be my major proj hee and i am looking forward on it.. i must do well this time to cover up my result drop this time hee ... hmm future is a mess i think .. dunno wat will happen hee but i think i will cope .. been living a very very boring life here .. hmm haiz.. i miss u laopo.. i miss u so much hmm.. so wish tat we can go out dating .. so wish tat we can go movie together .. so wish to hold ur hand... so wish to hug u tight with my arms ... hmm but i know we cant.. we hv to control .. hee u hv to concentrate well in ur studies... and i will hv to concentrate too.. hee.. so let us fight for our future together k my laopo.... i love u i love u i love u .. hee jiayou jiayou jiayou o hee..=)

Is been A WHILE...=)

2009-03-25T20:11:00.006+08:00

Woohoo man is back LOL... haha ok is been quite a while since my last post .. as u all can see it was during the Xmas.. hee okok let continue from there .. after Xmas there was New Year the first of JANUARY2009 nthg much happen din went out just had a dinner with sis and bro and talk bout future all those... den life went smoothly as i can tell . nthg change much .. family, frens and love.. bla bla bla ..

1)CHINESE NEW YEAR

Time passes and is CHINESE NEW YEAR ... wow haha .. it had been quite a fun time hee i like it but while growing up the fun seems to get lesser and lesser... maybe is when ppl grown up there are more things to worried and there are lesser place in the heart to play ..this yr new year is rather a long one cause is through out the weekends many things happened but is new year new resolution so let the past be the past and look bright into the future.. haha . put down the family part.. me and my darling and my buddies went funfair on the last day of the new year holidays play a lot things and been thrown up to the sky for many times by the machine not human lol haha.. and in the end .. many of us vomit haha.... fun is fun but we had to admit tat we are old haha...

(Pic 1- dishes on reunion dinner, not enough?? there is another table of food beside that cant take into this pic... Pic 2- family photo.. we had some colour sense ya??? nice effect hee.)

2)Valentine's Day <3

After CNY den i went back to sg and study and was back during Feb 14.. everyone know wat date it is.. hee is Valentine's Day.. is my second one .. the first one was when sec school i went out with my buddy Ah Boy and found out tat day was Valentine .. such a coincidence, and how pathetic haha... this year i went dinner with laopo at Heidi .. the place i purpose to her ... hee got her some gifts and roses hee.. I LOVE U LAOPO hee ... one thing we both realise is in such big occasion tat there will be a lot of ppl goin out dining.. we better find some places there is more quiet cause the dinner we had tat day SUCKSSS.. and the price SUCKSS too haha .. so better to be a bit romantic and cook urself a candle light dinner at home hee...

3)Anniversary and Exam...

After Valentine ... i went back sg for my exam ... been to a very very stress period ARGH... and i survive ... haha den finish exam straight away come back here to celebrate a very very special day ... hee 2nd of March hee me and laopo first year anniversary .. in this one tough yr we been through a lot a lot and break up dunno how many time ... but we still back together with a stronger bond that we love each other more and more... hee... i hope good stuff will waiting in front of us and there will be less obstacle hee... once again i say "I Love You Laopo" ... i really meant it..

4)Life...

And now i am in a very very long break till april 20th hee... nthg to do at home ... laopo on exam cant paktoh ... hee wat to do??? Watch "Smallville" and eat and slp haha ... the world economy is very very down now.. wish everyone who are working good luck and jiayou .. 'when the rain is over , sun will rise.' .... For those frens who just got their result jiayou jiayou jiayou and gd luck in ur university life ... i will miss u all haha.. and for me i must work hard cause my result drop this sem haiz... must jiayou jiayou and jiayou .... and Ah Ken !!! drive safely ... dun bang anyone again... dun think other things when u drive!!! Bon voyage...!!! Good Luck everyone!!!

PS: i miss my laopo.. opss lol.. hee

Merry Xmas and HappY NewYEAR!!!

2008-12-28T20:44:00.003+08:00

(nice X'mas tree ya??!?!?!?!..)

Merry X'mas and Happy New Year everyone... hee.. had a nice and fun X'mas at my hometown klg hee ... and this is the first X'mas tree i seen in klg ... so cool haha... thx to the new mall tat had opened hee... in add on quite a lot of entertainment in the small town i live hee... and new year is coming.. wow ... time really flies... hee .. next yr i will be 20 .... omg .. i am old old ...=X.. haha... chinese new year is following right behind new year ... so fast lo.. hee but i like it .. hee... can eat a lot play a lot meet a lot ppl haha...well life's good for me now.. hee LG ppl .. LG... =)

CCN day ....

2008-11-14T20:20:00.004+08:00

Today (Nov 14) is the CCN day of engine sch ... and all i can say is ..it sucks... is like so waste of my time lo ... just went there help buy some things den help frying things den all the other time i am slacking ..... shld hv stay home study for my quizzes next week ... got a lot leh .. haiz... hv to chiong over the weekend le.. hee after CCN after clearing all the stuffs.. i got my first tattoo but is fake one la.. hee THANKS RATHI for being such a gd artist tat draw so well on my hand hee looks so cool hee THANK YOU VERY MUCH...=)... den aftertat went mcD with derek and hong wee and den after the meal.. derek gif a lousy idea.. go play bb(basketball)... walao.. den i so stupid and i go agree... den we two at first run ard and it was ok .. but a while after.. feel like MERLION ah ... shit la... pls pls pls .. no more bb after meal .. will die ah !!!..

最后的疼爱......

2008-11-07T23:51:00.001+08:00

在这幸福的道路上，伤害与疼爱是画成等号的，
在知道一些事后，只能给予最后的疼爱，
难道放弃也是一种爱吗？
难道就不能为了自己而去争取你要的幸福吗？？
难道这也算爱吗？
难道在不知道答案前就放弃就是爱吗？
我不明白，这个世界到底怎么了？？
为什么有人可以为了成全被人的爱而放弃自己的爱？？
为什么要割爱？？
神能人所不能，但你不是神，你是人！！

《醒》
醒来的早晨，海鸟在空中飞翔，
不醒得人们，梦里面自我幻想，
觉悟吧！海盗的高歌，唤醒了恶魔，
温驯的羊儿，野蛮的牛儿，自由的飞鹰，
失去了的家园，永远都找不回，后悔！！
太晚了！神骏，麒麟，玄武，龙凤，都已无济于事。

TAGGED by HIANG...

2008-11-04T11:41:00.000+08:00

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What bothers you the most?
-Life....

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
-Doing Nothing...

3. What kind of news do you read?
-Hmmm haha all kinds of news ba i think...

4. Have you been committed in any crime?
-Nope..=)

5.is life meaning??or meaningless??
-I am still wondering on this question...

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
-Nope...money cant buy everything but without money u cant buy anything...

7. Are you afraid of pain?
-DUH.....

8. What do you feel like doing right now?
-Is a secret...hee=X

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
-YA i will.. but the only thing is how the result will be... hee WOO.. opsss..=)

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
-Caring
-Friendly
-Considering

11.What is your 5 most passionate thing at this moment?
-Traveling with ...
-Going back hometown doing nothing...
-Earning a lot a lot of money..
-Thinking the meaning of life...
-Having you...

12. If you can be on TV, which show would you want to be in?
-hmmmm....a performance show .. i like to be on stage and control the crowd...heee =)

13. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
-Anything....

14. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
-Happy .. cause rich doesnt mean u r happy...=)

15. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
-My looks...hee i want to be very handsome..=)

16. Will you ever kill yourself for studies?
-Nope .. is just studies.. haha.=)

17. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
-Nothing...

18. If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
-Memories of everything...

19. What are you thinking now???
-YOU.....

I want to tag:
-Catherine
-Tien Hui
-Mommy
-Derek
-Ah boy
-Zhihowe
-Carinna
-Nicole

林宇中-抢玫瑰(feat: jj)

2008-10-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

林宇中:我再也没办法形容她有多美
她的周围有太多人献媚
抢一朵玫瑰抢得我好累

林俊杰:我再也没办法预知她的迂回
进而又退我精神快崩溃
一堆傻男人为了她不睡太愚昧
却舍不得撤退

林宇中:抢手的玫瑰迷恋等于给她水
林俊杰:虚荣的作祟越抢她越陶醉
林宇中:她没有不爱谁
林俊杰:也没有选择谁
合:放机会让人想入非非
林宇中:抢手中的玫瑰总有一天会枯萎
林俊杰:会否没人追怀念当初有我陪
林宇中:她的泪太虚伪
林俊杰:让我飞让我追
合:抢一颗心碎抢到所有人伤痕累累

林宇中:就算最后爱到面目全非
林俊杰:我一再温习爱的初衷
林宇中:为何心动
林俊杰:越被撤退
林宇中:越要发威
林俊杰:喔........

说好的幸福呢 ......

2008-10-25T14:02:00.002+08:00

你的绘画凌乱着. 在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽. 甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯. 我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌. 假装没事了.

时间过了走了. 爱情面临选择.
你冷了倦了我哭了. 一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的懂了.

怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐爱情面临选择.

文。。。

2008-09-07T22:23:00.003+08:00

春暖花开，子游西湖，路经梅林，见一少年，石上叹息，近身问知。

少年曰：“两情相悦，忤逆父母，与己私奔，后觉不孝，与己详谈，无策；女辈怒之，离己。”
子问：“听于天命，自甘堕落？”
少年曰：“欲见不能见，欲言不敢言，留世有何用？”
子问：“为何？“
少年曰：“女故前程，愿己明，原明详不愿，但无勇；己愿与女过终身，其父母不愿己见之，无策。”
子曰：“不愿逆天，且愿逍遥，难矣，难矣。”
少年问：“有何良策？”
子曰：“明详之，愿其明白，若不明，无可勉强，尽力挽回，听天由命。”
少年怒之，与己所思有何异？
子曰：“儿女私情，无策通理，所能只有靠缘分。”
少年冥思，果然。

想念一个人就要说出来，爱一个人就要说出来，自己心里知道，对方不知，最终只有后悔。欲见不能见，欲言不敢言，我又有何方？？？唉唉唉唉................

misunderstanding....

2008-08-29T20:41:00.001+08:00

well happy holiday is stil happy holiday .. is just a misunderstanding...hee.. yeah !!!! i love u laopo.. hee..=)

ITs NOT FAIR!!!!

2008-08-29T11:40:00.002+08:00

Why is this happening again????
AGRH!!!!!
WHY ?????
I need a reason!!!
its not fair , its ridiculous!!!
Why the whole happy holidays screw up just one the first day???
W~H~Y?????
i dont wan to lose u laopo hmmm i dun wan.... haizzzz...

EMO-ING......=(

Target.....=P

2008-08-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

Here are my target for my comin exam ( i hope):

E math3 = A ( confirm ah!!!)
Netfund = A ( 90% lo!!!)
Public speaking = A ( If nthg went wrong.. hee..)
Biophysic = A ( Must work hard to gain it..)
Molgen = A (Must really really work super duper hard... scare the assignment drag me down..hmmm)
Medele = B+ ( got a B+ i super duper happy liao lo.. haizz.. stupid diffucult subject... hmm haizz..may god be with me hmm..=( .. )

I really hope my grade wont drop this time ... haiz... but my CP say i will drop wo... dunno la haizzz.. work hard first lo.. see how later.. haiz...=(.....

Hmmm....

2008-08-13T19:52:00.002+08:00

Exam comin soon on next friday .... argh ... and i dunno where to start... hmmm lost lost... dunno y suddenly feel very unconfident about myself .. in everything... y cant i do better??... argh... y am i so stress ??? is just an exam... i been pass 2 of it .. but .. haizz.. argh .. feel like screaming out ..ROAR!!!!.....

The Sky has no limit, so fly as high as you can but one thing to remember... "DO NOT FALL!!!"

nightmare part 1

2008-08-07T20:58:00.004+08:00

projectssss( my heart signal!!)

WOOHOO!!!!... half of my night mare is over .... but there are the other part that is more worst is coming soon.... finally finish all my projects and quizzes today .. feel so so so relief... hee. i think i did quite ok.. i think only la.. dunno yet . hv to wait for the result to come out... God bless me please..... hee.. worst nightmares are comin soon .. lab test on next week ... exam comin in 2 weeks time..... arghhhh.. and i hv to go work tmr ... a bit sien .. but think of money den bo pian lo ... cant wait for August 27th to come .... haizzz.... ish ish .... argh.... heee.. bought some TOTO tickets just now.. maybe i will be a millionare tmr and dunnid to study anymore... pray pray pray hard tat i will win . YEEEHAA!!!!.... heee...And to my small woman laopo .... heee.. i miss u so much ... must take care o... hmmm.. jiayou .. muacksss.. opsss.. heee.=P

i wan to win!!! i wan to win!!

messy..

2008-07-05T18:50:00.004+08:00

my feeling are so messy right now.... like rubbish bin .. like dumping side... i am so confuse confuse confuse... wat is goin on???.. wat hv i done???... wat will happen next??... wat is this happening???... argh argh argh .. i hv no where to tell.. i hv no point telling... keeping it to myself... back to old times... confuse confuse confuse.... hmmm..=(

wHy Like ThAT?????

2008-06-24T22:32:00.004+08:00

Why like tat???..............................................................................................

BLEED IT OUT...!!!!!

2008-06-12T23:55:00.002+08:00

i bleed it out, Digging deeper just to throw it away
I bleed it out, Digging deeper just to throw it away
I bleed it out, Digging deeper just to throw it away
Just to throw it away, just to throw it away
I bleed it out
Digging deeper just to throw it away
I bleed it out, Digging deeper just to throw it away
I bleed it out, Digging deeper just to throw it away
Just to throw it away, just to throw it away
I bleed it out
I bleed it out

昨天今天明天.....

2008-06-10T11:58:00.002+08:00

那天....那年...那时...那刻......那种香气...迷人的你,迷着了我...
今天....今年...今时...今刻......想念着你....想念你迷人香气..想念你可爱笑容...
未来......虽然是个未知数...但有一样东西我非常确定...那就是我会依然爱着你...
永远..永远都爱你...我的老婆...=) ..... muackss muacksss..=P

YEAH!!!!

2008-06-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

yeah finish term test le.... so so so so happy!!!!heee.. goin back klg tmr.. hope to see laopo soon heee.. yeah yeah holidays!!! i so happy....!!!yes.. =)

SAD........

2008-05-25T12:05:00.003+08:00

I was shock when i receive ur daddy msg on friday night ... dunno wat to say tat time ... last time ask u wat if u r disgnose to hv it den u say wun wan la..wun so suei... but really u strike the lottery... dunno wat to say, just hope u will get well soon ... and u will get well soon...for sure..u keep on saying u r ok .. but u sound so weak when u call..u sound so tired..take some rest k..jiayou ... we will giv u our moral support here...jiayou.. =)

StuPIDDDD.....

2008-05-22T23:18:00.001+08:00

STTTUUUUPPPPIIIIDDDDD!!!!!... i hv paper everyday on termtest.... everyday got paper...monday to friday ... EVERYDAY!!!!!.....y so many to test on??.... argh!!!! ARGH!!!!... stupiddddddddd!!!!!.. super not in a good mood now!!! argh!!!!!....

StoRY paRT 2.......

2008-05-16T00:16:00.002+08:00

From last story, K left the town for studies, J remain in the small town with his wound ,N left after 1 year J left cause her parents shift again......after a few years .. they all graduate from high school ... now they are in their college life.. new environment. new life ... but somehow or rather they are link together again.....

ONE normal sunny day ..... something not normal happen .. dunno is fate playing with them or wat... 3 of them J , K and N they end up in the same college and study the same course......

"Erm..... haloo... do u recognise me K??"
"OMG...!!!!.... J !!! is tat realy you..."
"Of course is me . who else can I be?? haha"
" I am so glad to see u again J .... OMG ... this is like so .... haha"
"Ya i cant believe it either .. i was doubting on my eyes just now .. but is really you .. i am so excited!!"
"hmmm.. hey .. may i ask .. how is N ???"
"U dunNO?? she left 1 year after you left .. "
"huh??... really ???... where she go???.."
"NO idea..."
"Stop talking bad words behind of me can or not???"
"N!!!"
"Omg u r here too!!.."
"haha. gotcha ... long time no see old frens... heee"
"Cool man .. let hv a gathering after class shall we guys???.. J N??"
"sure sure... hee..."
"Okieee..."

after sch they went to a nice cafe and chat... talking bout their lifes this few years... where they went wat they do...and they can sense tat all of them change a lot after all these years... but one thing for sure that din change at all.... the feelings between 3 of them... is still there.. deep inside their heart ... waiting to be awaken....

"Good morning K.... heee.."
"Hey .. good morning N... long time din hear this grreeting from u since last time... "
"........."
"Ya ... long time din greet you good morning... and long time din talk to you le...."
"Hmmmm.. Can we hv a small chat after sch K??... pls.. i been thinking whole night yesterday and i felt that i shld tell you smtg...."
"Huh.... hmmm... well actually..."
"K .. plsssss...just a small chat.... plsss..."
"okokok.... hee.. let go to the lounge later ok... hee"

After sch , they went to the lounge and all this happens without J notice...

"K.. actually all i wan to say is...."
"N... let me say first can??"
"N.... i am sry for my leaving and running away from you last time .. i been thinking all these years.... i am sry ... i make a woman who love me sad... i am nthg but simply a jerk...."
"Dunno say tat K ... dun.. actually i din blame u at all i just blame fate that tear us apart but who knows we meet again .. hee.. K .. i havent forgot anything about you .. i still love you .. for all this years .. i hv learn to be strong and change my mindset. i am not the old draggy cant deide things N anymore... now i will tell out my feelings directly .. and K i wan to tell you i love you ... and i love you a lot..."
"U really not angry of me .. really??? Yeah .. yes.. hee.. hmmm... actually i regret of leaving you and i keep on finding a way to contact you to tell you my true feelings.. but i just cant found u... fate link us again for a reason. i think the reason is because it's too pity for us and wan us to be together......."
K kneel down and purpose to N ..... N nodded her head happily ... a sweet relationship started but this may be the end of a long year friendship....after N agree to be K galfren .. K stood up and giv his first ever gentleman kiss on her forehead and this time .... J walk in..........

TO BE CONTINUE................

背影

2008-05-11T15:52:00.002+08:00

林宥嘉 -背影

三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
he……
一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意

A looonnnggg day...

2008-05-10T00:35:00.002+08:00

Is just a normal friday .. wake up early to giv laopo a morning call den went back slp again, den hv breakfast with bro... den aftertat slack at home ... den go sch to help out in the interview of pacesetters... help until 10pm den come home den traffic jam all the way . is like so ridiculous la..i left the sch at ard 10pm den i reach home at 11.35pm... took me an hour and 35 minutes for the whole journey.. i am fucking fed up with this kind of traffic liao lo.... hmmm . den reach home den bath den wan to call laopo at 12am... den call her ... and yet she told me she still studying with her frens... hmmm .. too bad.. just hv to let her study lo... study always come first.... hmm ... den call her again just now at 12.30am... she say she still discussing things with her frens.. hmmm .. den a bit sien diao liao lo... hmmm a kind of weird feeling grows up in my heart dunno how to explain it... is it angry??. nope... is it dissappointed??.. nope... is it jealous??.. nope also... hmmm i dunno wat i feel .. i just very very miss her and wan to see her and hear her voice .. but i cant... SIEN AH!!!!!.... y i suddenly feel so unsecure????... y i suddenly feel so empty ???.. y am i emo again??? wat the hell is happenning to me??? argh....!!!!!!..... i dunno... mess in heart . mess in mind... tired in physical.. tired in mental also.... haizzzz... help me .. help me...

weekENDS....

2008-05-05T22:35:00.007+08:00

Hab a looongggg weekend last week from thursday to sunday.. actually wna go back my deardear laopo cause she come back last week but cant cause daddy mommy come out to pick sis up .. she went to aussie and come back last saturday .. hee.. and she brought me pressie a limited edition aussie teddy bear(she say is a couple bear den the other gal bear is still in aussie .. she say see who got fate go buy it den come search for my this one. hee den can sell expensive.. opss.. bler..).. hee and a t shirt... a navy blue very dark colour attitute t shirt.. hee.. den b4 picking her up from airport me and daddy mommy went SHOPPING!!!... haha. there was a warehouse sale in suntec bought a pair of nike shoe, a t shirt again.. hee. so nice.. den daddy and mommy also bought a lot . daddy bought 2 pairs of shoes and mommy bought 1 pairs i think.. hee. so happy... and i ate a lot last week... like 3 to 4 meals per day .. ish ish ... must eat lesser liao. hee .. some photos.. hee..

is been one week plus i apart with laopo liao but is only one week plus but why does it feels like soooo loooonggg time leh... hmmm. i miss u laopo . i really really miss u.. wan to hug u now but cant... wan to kiss u now but also cant .. hmmm.. the poison in me is so deep i guess this life time i cant get it out le . i am urs laopo ... all urs... hee..muackssss..

bOreD....

2008-04-30T21:07:00.006+08:00

i am super duper BORED now!!!!... heee.. nthg to do.. wtf..i am drinking my small little cup of vodka now... and blogging...precisely... haha...today wake up early and left home early den go sch early also. den reach the stupid 23 bus stop early also but waited there for like 45 minutes and this cause me late for my emath3 tutorial... and dunno whether the tutor got mark late or not cause he like dun care like tat den i dun care also lo.. den when for 2 boring lec. and headed TM for lunch with clique at BURGERKING. eat two set of burgers cause too hungry liao. hee..(oooo the vodka taste nice with the coconut wine.. heee..opss).. den after lunch spend the rest of my time in library slack until 4pm and go tut.. den headed back home ard 6pm.. and bro msg and say tat he is goin to be home late..and this means i will hv to eat my dinner alone again.. hmmm.. din eat much ..(this make me think of YOU.. meow... how i wish u can be at my side now and we hv dinner together... hee but too bad we both hv to study ... so just work hard and do well for our future ba.. heee.. LOVE...<3)and this end my day i think.. heee.. tmr will be heading down to bugis at ard 1.30pm to meet my class... class outing .. lunch and movie..(i wan watch IRON MAN!!!)... heee.. i think tat is all.. continue drinking my wine liao.. tata..

new life...

2008-04-29T22:22:00.004+08:00

Hv been start sch for about like one week and more liao.. hmm.. been a quite unstable week last week but this week is better.. hee.. AND i DUN HV FRIDAY CLASS .. so nice.. hee.. last week hmmm emotion a bit unstable .. maybe is because miss you a lot ba.. meow... hv a little tiff.. hee..den went back on sat last week ... hee.. cause meow meow is leaving .. went back to giv her a "kissgoodbye"..OPSS... hee.. i think our relationship grow stronger after tat tiff.. hee..opss.. u r now in a new environment.. new life.. must be happy and take care urself o.. must work hard in studies also... but not too hard.. dun over stress urself or else sick den not gd .. no one take care of u and i not ard.. opsss.. hee.... and the most important thing is too miss me k..opss... hee..now u konw how "xing fu " are you leh.. got bf.. opsss..heee.. bler..meow meow meow.. heee.. i will take gd care of myself here de.. and take gd care of "fuiyoh" also.. heee..u must take gd care of CJ also k.. heee...LUV YOU O.. heee...this week got a long weekend thursday till sunday.... hee.. goin to watch "IRON MAN" with my class on labour day i think... den Fri daddy mommy will come and go airport fetch sis on Sat. heee.. she say she bought me a teddy bear.. hee... dunno how it looks like .. but for sure.. "fuiyoh" is always the cutest... heee.. meow meow..=) tat is all bout me past this few days... hee.. bler...

Miss YOU..

2008-04-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

YOu sure leaving liao .. hmm.. gonna miss u a lot a lot. once u leave the chances of talking to u get lesser. u hv to focus on ur studies.. and there will be less time for us..... hmmm... i dunno wat will happen ... think a lot.. but all link to sad sad ending... i wonder ... u keep on telling me to hv confident on us..... but i really cant get any out of myself..i dunnO .. i feel so unsecure ..maybe i too afraid to lose u ...because i too love YOU..... I MISS YOU HONEY ... I LOVE YOU.. i dun wan to lose u .. hmm.. but life goes on ... i know... all i wish is u can be happy up there... den i will be happy over here... hmm... LAOPO...allow me to call u this here... i love u i miss u.... meow meow meow... heee.. must be happy o....u happy den i will happy.... and dun agitate me so much ho... heee.. later i worry and sad den make u sad also... hee... hmmm... so when u r there must take good care of urself...dun get sick ... must study hard... prove to them u r the best.. must think of me also k..... hmmm... i will work hard here also ... i will miss u .....i hope our love wun fade..... hmmm... i know our love will be eternal.... i love u .... <3 <3 <3........TAKE CARE LAO PO.....muackss muackss..=')

离去

2008-04-16T23:41:00.003+08:00

看着你的背影缓缓的离去,
我心碎了,
今夜下的雨,心中的眼泪,
抹不去的思念,
何时才能再相见??
过去的欢乐,当时的笑容,
为何此刻想起却是心酸,
黑夜孤独,风雨相伴,
一生的爱,一世的情,
只有你.
不要求什么,
只希望天天夜夜陪着你,
不想离去,却无能为力,
命运的安排,缘分的愚弄,
只有坚强的面对,
等待..等待...这就是我所能做的.........

LeavING

2008-04-12T18:29:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. leave klg soon... sch start soon .. goin back sg soon... goin to miss here... goin to miss a lot a lot ... hmmm... meow...hmm... a new secind year for me.. hmm .. time to pia liao .. PIA for better GPA.. pia for scholarship .. pia for everything .. my mind must be strong ... must be strong.... hee... i will miss here....... a lot a lot....

缘

2008-04-11T11:49:00.004+08:00

缘起缘灭...患得患失.....这就是无常

mou dareka no tame janakute(u dun hv to force ur smile for anyone)

jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo(it's okay to smile for urself)

Story...

2008-04-09T12:12:00.007+08:00

her name is N , a transfer student from a out state gal sch ....
his name is K , the top student in sch, monitor of the class, a nice and friendly gentleman...
his name is J, K's best fren clever, not need study much but can get very good result , live to flirt gals....

THIS IS THEIR STORY....

"K! K!...look look ...."
"Wat?!"
" that is the gal from the convent sch , isnt she pretty??.. hee"
"J, i know wat u r thinking .. dun even think bout it.. ppl come here to study .. dun mess with her.."
"O O O .... K... u really care about her ah ... dun tell me U hv already fall for her liao..wooooooo.."
"RUBBISH..!!.. i wonder wat class she will be assign to...??"
"Haha ... i know u r praying hard for her ... hee..opsss"
"Huh??"
"To get in our class of course.. hee.. so tat u can get close to her ... haha.."
"Ish... shut up..."
"U r blushing K... heee...opss.."
"............"

(Deep in the heart K knows she is the one .. but he just dun hv the guts to admit it....and as his wish, N got into their class.... now his mind is getting more and more messy ... his heart is bumping more and more fast....)

"Hi... i am K .. i am the monitor for this class.. welcome to our class.. if there is anything just let me know.. nice to meet u.."
"Hi .... nice to meet u too... i am N.."
"Haloo... i am J .... K best fren .. nice to meet u also ... u r pretty u know??.. hee.."
"J.. dun talk rubbish !!"
"Ho HO ... so K .. u saying she is not pretty la... hmmm"
"No , i dun mean tat .. sry N .. sry sry ... NO NO.. ish .. (blush)..."
"hahaha... just joking la.. i know u wun mind right? N..hee.."
"Ya.. hee...is ok .. i can tell this is a nice class.. and we will hv fun.. heee.. especially u K... u r a nice guy .. hee"

(Her first smile... and first praise on K....he is goin bonkers liao ... his heart beat is getting faster and faster ....and he cant control it.... with this friendly and nice intro ... three of them become gd frens ... they play , they laugh , they tease, and secretly they start loving each other......)

"RRINGGGGGGG....."
"Hey, K , halo J.. heeee...where shall we eat today??heee.. "
"Halo N.... "
"Arlowssss...heee... u decide ba.. ladies hv the rights .. hee.."
"Hmmm.. ish ish . K so any suggestion??"
".... "
"U ok K?..... wat happen J??"
"Haizzz.... his daddy has been transferred .. and his family hv to move .. so he may not be studying here anymore.. "
"....Well... is just a small thing la.. nvm de.. i am ok ... let dun spoilt our mood.. hee... lets go eat at the mamak stall we use to eat.. heee... let's go J , N...lets race there...loser treat... haha.."

(off he ran .... N and J know ... he is just acting strong... hmmm.. they hv a quiet meal.. no one talks... even the talkactive J keep quiet .. )

That night J call K ....

"Bro .... i need to tell u smtg... smtg tat had kept in my heart for a long time..."
"Ya .. sure .. i am all ears...hee"
"I like N... dunno since when .. but i am deeply in love with her... and is not like others gals tat i like before . this time is different.... this time is real..i am goin bonkers because of her.... hmmm"
"......wow... hmmm....did u told her ur feeling already???"
"ya .. i told her once.. but .. she rejeted me.. she says is not the time yet... and she says .. she already hv someone in mind... hmmm.... i dunno wat to do . i really love her....."
"hmmm .. bro . just let fate decide it k.... hmm. i wonder who is in her mind... hmmmm.."
"u hv to kept it a secret k??.... i dun wan her to know i still love her.... i scare she avoid me .. hmm.."
" sure dude.... J , my brother... looks like is serious this time .. hmm... let fate decide it ba.. "

(they talk a lot tat night .. but the more J says how he love N .. the more K bleeds in his heart.. cause he is also in love with her... and now his best fren shares the same feelings... his mind is already very messy .... now even worst.... hmmm..)

(the next day , N call K out during recess time....)
"K .. can i talk to u privately ?"
"Sure... wat happen?"
"K... i know this will be a lil shock .. but if i dun tell u now... i scare i wun hv any chances to tell u anymore...."
"wat so serious?.. someone bully u??.. u ok??"
"K.. I LOVE YOU... i LOVE YOU... i love u since the first day i met u ..... i love u .. can u dun leave me...hmmm"(she cried)
"....."(K was speechless and shocked... he dunno wat to do .... all he does was just hugging her and let her cry....)

(Tat night .. K thinks a lot..... he love N very much ....and N too shares the same feeling towards him .... he has to make a decision ... he has to leave... he thinks tat he cant giv wat N wans...although he can stay for one or two years... but after the sch time he still hv to leave... hmmm... at tat time . both of them will suffer more .... so he decide to help J to woo N ... at least is someone he trust tat is taking care of N..... at least he can rest assure and leave....)

"K....."
"Good Morning N... hee... let hv dinner later k??.. hee"
(after sch , they went to the same mamak again..)
"N.. i hv been thinking over and over again last night.. hmm .. and i hv smtg to tell u ... "
"I cant stay here anymore .... i hv to leave with my dad.... so .. u know.. hmm...."
"i hv one last wish ... there is someone who r very in love with u also .... J ... "
"all tat i wish is both of u two to be happy .... so .... hmm... i am leaving tmr.... sry i can accept ur love.... fate hv make the decision .. hmm"
"K .. No ... y ? u dun love me?...u can still stay for one or two years.. tat is all i ask for ... i really love u K.. pls pls .. dun leave.. dun .. hmmm"

(she cried.... this time K din hug her or say anything but he just left.... cause he cant stand it anymore... he cried also ... he call J to go console her ... and told J to take good care on her ...this is the last time N met K ......)

K left.. J and N din get together also .... N left after one year K left.. she was too upset and she collapse... J is still a happy go lucky person . but in deep in his heart... NO one knows what is he thinking...

TO BE CONTINUE...............

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DreaM...

2008-04-09T11:52:00.002+08:00

"All of these happened like in a dream .. but is real ... for me i really dont wish to get up from this nice sweet dream , cause i really dont wish to leave you... hmmm.."

Sometimes in my mind, smtg flash through , and few days later these things happen in real ... hmm .. i wonder y it happen .. is like this place tat i nv been b4 , but when i reach there , there r some pictures of it in my mind , is like so familiar... like i hv been here long time ago ... this similar thing happen in ppl also , sometimes i met someone tat i hv not met b4 but feel the very close feeling like relative , or closer.. strange... i know. but tat happens... dunno y.. IMAGINATION??..... maybe....

i saw an article tat day , it says on an ancient building craving , there is an astronaut picture on it... i been wondering , is this world like goin round and round. century after century ... mankind vanish den some other creatures rule this world and evolves into new mankind again .. and this cycle keep goin and goin ... our ancestor is from apes.. tat hv high intellegence... maybe the next new mankind is from dolphin ... heee... dunno.... haha.. this is IMAGINATION.. hee.. but it may come true also ... hee.. every technology and evolution in this world came from human mind .. so be creative .. maybe YOU will be the next great inventor or sciencetist.. haha..

chaNGES...

2008-04-01T22:35:00.002+08:00

"ETERNAL" .... i wonder y this word exist.. wat i hv understand on nature now is everything changes and changing is nature... nothing is eternal .. or maybe i havent met it yet.. hmmm .. a wonderful harmony family can change due to one person's stubborness.. and change into a scary .. unwarm home.. the only feel in this home is just to quickly get out of it and go somewhere peace... hmmm...haha.. these are just a sense of my thoughts.. hee .. bler.. dun care .. haha.. i have bright future(i think..)hee.. all i hope is not a very wealthy life .. all i need is just a comfortable relax life .. tat dun hv much obstacles ,suffering or troubles.. hee. i just hope my life can be very smooth , very peaceful , very enjoy ... living with my love ones.. as a big happy family .. no quarrel . no fight.. no anger.. only love....heee.. but .. hmm.. i think is hard .... haha. bler... bler.. HAPPY APRIL FOOL everyone .. hee.. i was fooled last night .. haha.. ish ish..=)

This SEM break

2008-03-27T18:40:00.005+08:00

Wow... a lot of things happen this holiday... hmm .. how to say ... crazy.. fun... scary ... experienced...hmmm .. all i can say is tat it really teach me a lot and thx..start thinking liao .. did a lot of crazy stuff lately .. time to back off.. become normal again .. is time to let rational take over .. no more emotion leaders... haha.. hmmm... think of the future.. kind a ... hmm .. sad... hee.. but never mind... it havent come yet.. must treasure the precious moment we have now.. and prepare for the future tat is comin and not regret on the past tat we had done ... heee... well a lot of things changes.. but changing is nature.. so we cant force it or stop it .. all we can do is to follow and accept it ... NO REGRET!!!.. haha.. more details when i am back in sg. now the connection here very jialat.. cant post photos.. so only write all these words lo... heee... and lastly all i can say is i really learn a lot during this time .. is about a month le.. heee.. thx.. meow.. heee.thx a lot.. hee.roar.. haha.. and to NICOLE.. I HAVE BLOGGED... SO .. READ BA... and u shld blog also liao ... heee... enjoy ur holidays.. heeee...

Is it everything in this world are all be destined???... All those tat we had done .... all those are happening .. all those tat will happen...hmm... i know there is no answer on this question ... but just curious.. just ... hmmm.. =)

finish EXAM !!!!....

2008-02-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

PHEW!!! finally .. i finish my exam liao !!!. okok.... for all of ur concern ... the previous post i wrote is not about my "emo"ing.. is just tat i am on exam and i am quite stress at tat time ... so maybe sound a bit down or wat.. heee... so now after exam liao .. can relax liao so shld be posting happy things!!!back to KLUANG!!! my hometown the day after my last paper ... which is today ... heee. so happy to see my parents ... and granparents..... the only and one and only reason i am back is to RELAX!! do nthg but find frens out play .. eat .. slp .. go travel maybe... get high.. back to my old sch time... PLAY !!!!... hee.....den maybe play for like one month or such den go back sg to work .... earn money !!!!... den save money den go travel!!.. hahahaha.. so happy i am on holidays.... and want to ask my class... any plannings on this holidays??.. like chalet ?? BBQ??... or dunno wat??..... wan to play..... play .... and play!!!!!

VAcant

2008-02-24T22:53:00.002+08:00

hmmm .. i shldn't be blogging now .. cause actually i am having exam.. but heee.. too boring of studying so .. just come up blog lo.. feel so stress recently .. also dunno y .. is not exam i think.. i din took it seriously .. just do watever i can .. heee... a strong feeling of emptiness start to grown in my heart ... feeling tat am i worthy... is all i have done worthy .. am i just a fool .. some sort of these question ... i dun wan to dissapoint others and also myself..... i just wan to be happy and let others be happy .. tat is all ... so .. ya . tat is wat i wan to say .. all i wish is the most simplest yet the hardest thing in the world "HAPPINESS".. heee.. so .. can someone tell me where is it???

i will laugh when my hearts cry.
this is what clowns do,
always laughing in front of others,
but when at the backstages,
they cried alone.
LOnely clown , happy circus,
lonely me, lonely world,
WHERE iS tHE LOVe???
HAhahahahaHAhahaha....

Chinese NEW year!!!! 2008.....

2008-02-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

The DAY before eve....(tuesday)...

have sch in the morning until 6pm , but ask for permission from my tutor to leave early ,cause hv to rush back m'sia...heee.. den took a cab from TP to woodland checkpoint , cause sis say will JAM .. but nthg happen ... traffic was so smooth .. ish .. and cause me $27 for the cab fare ..HURT!!!!.. den aftertat wait outside the custom for more then 1 hour ,... cause my sis they all are LATE... ish ...den took the 9.15pm bus from LARKIN back to KLUANG.. JAM on highway for like an hour or more.. reach home ard 12plus liao . bro and sis r like two zombies... straight away go slp... ish .. den left me and parents go PASAR MALAM.. so nice .. shop until 3 plus den go back .. den took a bath .. den talk talk a bit .. ard 4 plus 5 like tat den slp .. heee..

CNY eve....(wednesday)

woke up ard 6 plus in the morning , is like actually din slp la , go out breakfast with ah gong ,ah ma they all , eat until 9 plus 10 like tat come back home , den "BAI TIAN GONG"

aftertat , ate lunch den rest until night den is the REUNION DINNER i waited sooooo long , only once a year den can eat all this kind of good good stuff... haha.. DELICIOUS!!! THANK MOM!!

den after the dinner , fetch my cousin to town buy dvd den cmome home they all watch show .. dne left me ... too boring until i drove out to my fren house and chat .. meow.. haha.. chat until dunno wat time .. but i think ard 3 or 3 plus.. den go home .. den my cousin havent slp.. den chat with him until ard 5 plus like tat .. den go close eye a while ....

THE FIRST DAY .."CHU YI"...(thursday)

woke up on 8 plus ... after a while slp ... haha... den "bai nian"with parents and sis, den ah gong ah ma, den uncle auntie....... a lot a lot..den .. pictures time !!!! haah..

after taking photos den have lunch .... den a lot others relatives came.. aunties uncles.. take ang pao .. haha...den dunnO slack doing wat until dinner time... after dinner den go frens house play ... heee.. eat eat talk talk again ... den aftertat go k parade watch "kung fu dunk".. not bad la.. quite funnie.. heee..=)

THE SECOND DAY.."CHU ER".. (friday)

din slp last night also.. after movie when yum cha until late late... haizz.. den morning eat mommy cook de breakfast... taste great .. den play some cards games.... den another uncle come .. den talk talk .. den go out hv lunch at restaurant.. eat "yu sheng"

after lunch , my uncle went back sg liao ... den we go to my mother side ah ma house.. my grandme in-law house la.. hee.. den "bai nian".. chit chat.. play mahjong... den eat again.. haha.. eat dinner.. my mom cooking skill r halfly from here so the food tat ah ma cook is ..WOW!!! haha..aftertat when home .. den go out again with frens.. yum cha .. talk talk ...

THE THIRD DAY..."CHU ShAN"..(saturday)

this day is go out "bai nian" with frens de liao .. haha.. morning when out with my THO gang .. go like a few houses only .. cause most of them went holiday during CNY time .. ish .. damn....

den aftertat went out with another group.. hee.. when watch movie.. "CHANG JIANG 7 HAo".. den aftertat eat talk talk .. den go funfair...

BUsy & saD week

2008-02-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

I am back .. from very very busy and stress weekssss , tests, quizzes, projects , presentation ... all driving me crazy ... ish .. but luckily finish all liao , today just finish my last quiz, feel so relax and relieve, but not until let me feel relax a bit , things come up again ,my attendance thing havent settle yet , dad keep on nagging, din do very well in math quiz ... but this one expected... haizz.. den... sthg happen... sthg... sad thing .. haizz.. and i think is my fault , i am sorry then , but the worst thing is , .....i dunno where i did wrong ... i am such a jerk.. haizz.. hope someone will forgive me soon and ..... u know .. get back to normal again ... ish ..=( ......OKOK cut the crap .. no more sad sad thingy ... CNY is two more days away!!! YEAH!! so happy, feel very CNY now , just now after class rush down to orchard to shopping ... release tension i think .. bler but nvm bought a shirt and some gifts which i promised someone ..meow*.. heee... will be goin back KLUANG tmr night , so looking forward on it , the only thing i dun like .. is the crowd tmr, such will be extremely crowded ... shit .. hate tat..=X.. haha looking forward to the reunion dinner and meetings with cousins, so fun .... and not forget my beloved buddies and frens.. wahaha.. will "KILL" them on the "table" ... haha .. bler...=) i think tat is all ba .. no feelings to write too much , mind are messy and confuse and .. dunno wat now... ='(

i am so sorry of what i have done ,if what i done make you miserable or sad or what , my deeply apologize here,SORRY...... hope we can be bak normal again...=(

First duty in Pace...

2008-01-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

today Jan 10th , is the open house of temasek poly and it is the date of the event "Engineering Project Show"(EPS).. and wat is so special bout it?? it is because it is my first duty in pace . woohoo!!! I was to be assign to take the duty of the "EPS"and it is my first duty in pace,i repeat soo manny times .. y ?? cause i am nervous la ...of course...overall the whole event when pretty smooth , but is was not tat lucky for me... In the morning of today , i woke up very very early in the morning 6.15am to prepare myself for my duty, set my hair , wear my clothes very neatly , den set off on about 6.45am... bus came ard 7am ,i was thinking "wah today so lucky bus so fast come .heeee.." BUT!!!! i was totally wrong , the bus was stuck on TPE!!! there is an accident there and cause a very very heavy traffic jam..... damn shit lo .. i was jam in there for like an hour and cause me late for my meeting with my fellow collegue from PACE, which i am suppose to meet them at 8 am. but turn out i came late and i meet them ard 9am...thx to everyone for waiting for me.. and the sandwich also.. heehee...=) .. den we went to the event place to report we were just on time .. luckily .. heehee..=X .. den the guest start comin , i was actually suppose to be the prize steward for today but turn out because too many guests came i will be the "usherer"helping out usher the SAC members at the car park... i am damn nervous lo , cause it is my first duty i cant afford to make any mistake (but i think i made a lot.. heehee..)and i dun hv any experience or training on ushering guests yet, it turn out to be only some brief explanation from Jeremiah , my pace collegue..... den i start do the job , i dunnO whether i did it well or not ,but just do it la better than no one ushering them right .. heee...this part was quite ok , quite fun actually , den the giving out prizes part , the organizer's tell us tat the prize table is very very "BIG"!!!! den we stand by 2 pacesetters there me and sherrilyn to help out give out the prize but it turn out the table is only the normal size .. shit ... it was like very awkward lo.. i pass to sherr den sherr pass to the GOH .. in a very near distance... u wont know how funnie izit unless u saw the scene.... haha..but we made it ... hehe... overall everything went just fine, smoothly .. i think .... haha.. is been very nice working with u all, sherrilyn ,zaheer ,jeremiah,is fun ... hope to work with u all again soon .... we did well din we ??? and the food is NICE!!! haha.=) all the best to u all.. take care.=)

2oo8!!!

2008-01-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

A new year has come ... haha 2007 was not very good as i expected.. hope 2008 will be fun and happy and smooth ba... start sch liao .. just like past .. boring .... haizz... nthg to do ... a lot projects need to do .. haizz. no time to play... opsss =X.. hehe.. planning to go travel overseas this year maybe on this marc got go taiwan or beijing .. but seems like is goin beijing liao .. cause daddy mommy coming .. if go taiwan they say boring . so go beijing lo... hee..

a lot thinking in mind but din say out cause still not the time yet .. let just keep it in heart first..=)...when the time arrive someone will know... or maybe the time wont come at all .. just let those things stay in my heart???. who knows..haha.!!!

some frens around are sad... i am sad also dunno y .. haha.. but just all of them will be happy soon, is new year , what can be more worst ... haha.. wat am i toking .. heeeee....AND !!! lots of ppl r sick also ... so take care of urself ok !!! drink more water !!! eat more fruits !!! and do those which can make u healthy .. haha... go go go !!! is 2008...=)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

HOLIDAYSSSS!!!!!

2007-12-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

Wah long time nv come up blog liao .. haha.. busy with term test and projects.... and some CCA thingy .. but everything will be over soon . because holidays starts now... yeeehaaa... ok is dec now the most fun month in the year .. is X'mas season !!! Merry X'mas everyone .. hahaha... wil be having a X'mas party at sch with my student abbasador frens on monday den will be goin back klg on tuesday with my fren ... i think there will be some celebration in klg also with my frens and relative.. cause quite a lot of them came back from overseas.. hehe... got a big feast to eat ... yeah !!!!... and will be coming back to sg on 23 dec...think will be having a class celebration also .. or clique celebration maybe .. dunnO .. not sure yet...it will be fun ... !!! BUT !! after that is project time ... shit !!!. got 4 project need to rush ... biochem , biofund, comprog, and phychology ... shit...and on 28 dec hv to go back sch the whole day for soldering class also .. haizzz.. luckily there will be a family bbq on sat (29 dec) to balance back the work .. or else it will be boring... haha..=X..den after the weekends start sch liao ... 31st DEC... carinna birthday .. will be having only half day sch ... maybe goin out celebrate .. maybe not .. dunno ... hehe.. den HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!haha .. is will be a quite packed up holiday but i am sure it will be fun .. hehe... i Hope...

New year and X'mas wishes:-
1)Hope the world will be as peaceful as it be
2)Hope everyone around me(friends and families)will be happy and healthy as always
3)Hope my results will be good
4)Hope can get a gf as soon as possible.....(hahaha... depends on fate de. cant force ..i know.=)..)
5)Hope there will not be any troublesome things happens next year..

Really hope someone can accompany me on X'mas and X'mas eve......

HAppY 18 BirtHDAY to Me , mYseLF and I....

2007-11-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!! is WOoHoo man birthday !!! how old is woohoo MAN ??? He is 18 oledi .... yeah .. freedom .... can do anything .. WOOHOO!!!few more minutes to my birthday liao .. HOw am i feeling???? i also dunnO . actually juz feel normal .. haha...a bit happy cause sis juz gave me ang pao ... woohoo ... got money spend liao .. now "msn"ing with my best fren . guess who is he ??? haha .. u all NOe la .. haha.... hOpe will be very happy in my 18 .. NO big problems .... and world peace .. and at last ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!! haha... =)

BraND nEw....

2007-11-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

New blogskin , new style, new start for me .... haha.. a happy sunday had passed... went lunch at paris international with sis and bro .... on the way met auntie alice, the meal was on her of course(actually it was suppose to be on sis one ,as a gift for my birthday .. but since aunt had cover up for her .... so i think she may hv to think of sthg else as my gift ... ang pao maybe???.. haha).. had a great lunch . the food taste nice but the only disapointment is that the variety of choice is too little.... hehe.. but still very happy la ...haha..

Taken on the way to lunch..

Tmr will be Wanhui's birthday (goin Seoul Garden to celebrate ... i think???).... wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY HERE!!!! HopE U WILL be as happy as always and become prettier... haha..opsss...=X

I aM nOT a PirATE....

2007-11-17T18:24:00.000+08:00

OK .. blog music has been removed , cause is quite annoying after listening to it for such long time ...

CCN day passed yesterday , is tired yet it was fun .. it makes me think of the past time when i was in sec sch , the hari koko .... selling things , playin games , distubing ppl , preparing stuff, skip classes .... all those funny funny things ..the day was quite successful , i think ... we sold all our stuff , but actually some in the end is just selling in cheap cheap price ... but gd news , we actually manage to earn about around $100 .. not bad ... haha.. thanks to everyone who had participated... " xin ku le".. A-RI-GA-TO.....

few more days to my birthday ... i wonder will it be any suprises?..... hmmmm .. haha..=X

O-Hai-Yo-Go-Zai-Mas...

2007-11-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

Wakaka ... this weekend is boring .. arghhhhh!!!ok friday .. after class actually suppose to go play pool with frens .. but somehow dunno why canceled... ok den nvm .. den go back sch to play captain ball on CM cup .. and those who say wan come din come .. those who came left .. onli left of four guys there .. walao !! den mr chung is very very very sad about this .. haizzz .. how pathetic .. we end up begging ppl to lend us ppl to join the game ... so malu lo ... sibei khanasai... we end up joining with 3 gals from year 3 ..Iris they all ( thanks so much for helping us, thank you very much)..we actually play well using only a little bit of effort.. in both games , at the first round we score 10-4 .... but maybe we r too proud or sthg .. den we kena chase back on the second half.. but nvm .. no matters how gd we play we wun get the first place by the way .. we r just joining to hv fun and dun wan to lose mr chung face.. thanks for those who hv participate... u noe who u are cause onli three of u ...

Saturday ..more worst ... suppose to go work but the boss say he nOt ready today yet so goin tmr .. den the whole morning and afternoon is only wasting of time .. reading novels and playing com... den at night join sis and her fren go watch movie .." The Gameplan". nice show !!! the 'rock' being a father .. haha .. touching and funny .. i will giv it a 8 upon 10 ....den go hv subway afterthat... boring sia !!! walao ..

WoOhOO Man is BacK!!!...

2007-10-21T01:26:00.000+08:00

Haha .. long time din blog liao .... haha was away back to my hometown KLUANG... to celebrate my dad and my fren birthday .. haha.. was fun . first is my dad birthday which is on 13 Oct .. hehe .. me and sis rush back a night b4 .. den the second day we go bought a cake 4 lunch .. hehe it cost me RM32 leh .. but is worthy la.. haha.. this is the first year that i do this alone cause in the few year past all was my sister plan de i was onli helping a little bit only .. but this year i do everything haha .. buy cake .. buy presents.. bring out suprise ... haha .. it was fun.. hope dad will be happy bout it .. hehe .. HAppy Birthday DAD !!! LOve u always. !! haha... some photos..

Den at night .. the celebration of my frens birthday begun .. haha.. we went out to hav dinner .. actually wan go Barney's de but because ms birthday gal dun wan so we go a restaurant name Jazz ... the food there really cannot make it ah .. angry !!! haha the taste ok la ..still can tahan .. but the quantity ... the amount is like .. walao three mouth den finish liao .. cannot make it la .. me and weichun eat like very xian lo .. so little onli .. haha..=X..the birthday gal happy we happy also la .. den after dinner we went to ktv .. sing sing sing.. actually i was the one singing the most haha.. paiseh la .. i like sing mah . haha.. den aftertat we went to the birthday gal house celebrate with her .. bought a cake secretly ... haha.. cheese cake hope she like it .. haha ..den celebrate .. although it was just 10 plus but we cannot tahan liao so celebrate early .. den aftertat we go yumcha .. haha crapping a lot .. haha..den on the way sending them back .. is 12 liao so we sang birthday songs on the ride .. funny right .. haha..but it was fun la . haha Happy Birthday !!!! Hope u like the present and the cake i bought u .. but sorry la no suprise .. hehe cant make any... Here is some pics on the celebration .. actually got videos de but the gal say paiseh dun wan me put so put pics onli lo .. haha...

tat is all for the celebrations .. haha... just now a fren ask me bout something ...this "something"let me like kind of think back a lot bout past .. haha .. dunno y .. haha .. den i am very curious about one thing ... "ok, joker tells jokes, but sometimes they will also be serious also mah but y do ppl always think joker will only tell jokes and all they say is jokes cannot not be serious de.. haha i also dunno y .."haha..but this world is like tat de la .. when ppl already mark u as one kind u will always be tat kind of ppl ... like when u did crime and u was a criminal and no matter how much u hv change .. ppl will still think u are one... when normal time they will say "o u change a lot ... u being so kind .. u not a criminal " but when things happened ... they will point their fingers on u .." u are the one who did it... u are a criminal .. u wun change ... i shouldnt hv trust u ".. haizzz ppl are all the same .. when a joker is being mark as a joker no one will take him seriouly ...

i am now answering my frens question ... y i always " haha" during msn? .. haha , cause i am a joker, my job is bringing happiness to the ppl around me.. i "haha" cause i wan them " haha " also .. haha.... but usually when i am "haha" ing... my heart will be bleeding .. haha.. that is wat a joker do right? bringing all fun to ppl and keep all the sadness and miserable to himself.. haha .. JOKER .. haha....

古来成败原关数,天下英雄大可知...

2007-09-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

哇!!!可以用华语blog了...哈哈!!!!好高兴哦!!回来居銮跟家人和朋友过中秋啊!!!好怀念童年时那种提灯笼游街的日子啊!!但是这些只能化为美好的回忆,永远埋在心里!!!前几天去了一个朋友开的月光会...蛮好玩的...认识了不少新朋友...唱了不少歌....喝了那么...就那么..一点点...真的只是一点点的酒...不知道为什么这样就醉了.....haiizzzz...以前不会这样的...真的是人在伤心时特别容易醉吗?还是酒不醉人,人自醉?我也不知道...哈哈..反正不碍事..哈哈..只是不懂有没有说错话..如果有我在这里道歉啦..不要生气噢!!!不知者无罪嘛....哈哈....多几天就要回新加坡了..要回去找工作...最近很穷啊!!!哈哈..=X...想到又要回去了..有点伤心..有点期待...伤心是因为又要离家..成为游子了..不知何时才能再回来探望父母,朋友们....期待是因为在这新环境中(也不算新啦)又不知有多少好玩,烦恼,伤心,渴望,讨厌,忍耐的事在等着我....哈哈..这是人生的一种经历吧...终始都要面对的...乐观点...每日一笑,世界多美好..哈哈..在这里对那些关心我的朋友说声对不起..让你们担心了...也要说声谢谢..谢谢你们的关心...但是很遗憾的我还是决定把苦自己吃...你们不用担心我..因为我会好好过...哈哈..小弟不才在此做诗,请各位不要见笑....

"秋月"
月圆中秋,合家团聚,
游子归乡,齐家欢乐,
苦饮闷酒,自醉解忧,
醉醒观世,天子觉醒!

"痴"
痴心处麻中,思念无止步,
刻刻探星空,空望待传音,
苦盼你归来,绝望心中生,
笑看痴红尘,自愧人笑痴!

WoohOO!!!!...

2007-09-21T00:27:00.000+08:00

WoOhOO!!! haha dunno wat happen to me recently .. hehe . cant control my emotion well .. seems like my EQ is dropping... haha .. but nvm .. this is not the main thing for today ... well i hv to say i am happy ..cause home sweet home ... i am at my hometown now ...WoooHOOO!!!! i am back since i finish my chalet with my frens ... was fun ... but ws troublesome also ... hehe..cause quite a lot didnt come and .. just a few of us.. haha.. nvm ...well quite a lot of things happen here some gd .. some troblesome... some memorable .. and some quite shocking...haha..well quite happy meeting up my old frens talk a lot ... hehe... happy talking... haha .. lecture some of them ... hehe.. den go celebrate my grandpa birthday ... eat a big feast as usual .. haha. i think i hv gain some weight tat i hv lost ba.. haha...but nvm i will lost it again de... goin to the bbq feast at one of my fren house this weekend .. hope will hv fun ba.. hehe...well...sg life is not tat interesting den... waiting for interview to go work but the manager was not in for few days so hv to wait...if get a job den very happy cause quite broke nOw after the chalet .. haha..well tat's all bout my recent life .. is boring anyway... haha..I AM A NO-LIFE MAN!!!

"Do we really need sacrifise to optain success or happiness?Do we ?"

"i laugh when my heart is bleeding.....i laugh because i dont want others to know i am sad...cause if people know i am sad ,some will come and ask ... then they will also be sad.. i dont wish my sadness become a burden to others... so i laugh all the time... but my heart is bleeding as well..."

"mou dareka no tame janakute, jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo"
(you dont have to force your smile for everyone , it's okay to smile for yourself)

WhY SUffeR???

2007-09-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! think through a lot liao .. haha . not so depress liao and wun depress anymore in the future(i hope).. haha ... recently b4 this i am feeling very down .. just feel that i am not good enough comparing to others, i am a lousy person that cant do anything right ... already 18 years old liao think back my past ..i really cant think of anything that can make me or my family or even my frens proud of.. i am such a loser!!!!!Such a loser that until i hate myself .. i hate myself why am i being so useless .. haizzz..BUT!!!! A big "BUT" here..haha..no one in this world is perfect.. no one can do anything without obstacles.. there will be a lot of obstacles in our life.. our life is like waves..got high tide and low tide... so when high tide we must cherish and when low tide we must overcome it bravely... dun compare with others cause everyone is different in this world ... nthg can be compare.the only person that u should compare is urself.. make urself improve by learning through mistake and failure... life goes on .. dun let once failure make u down into the bottom..fall down liao must climb up ownself..the is how it goin to be..hahaha...keep on thinking these and life will be great..hahaha..laugh at least five times a day ...u will be more happy.

"Life goes on.. whether u happy or not ..the world is still moving...so if u nid to pass ur day y dun pass it through a happy way rather than the sadness way .. if u always sad.. the people around u will also be sad also..so y make them suffer also... if sad .. make urself look happy ..when time pass den u will forget the sad things also and be happy again..."

LoveSS anD HatEsS

2007-09-05T01:31:00.000+08:00

Haizz .. blog again ..this few days a lot of feelings ah..haizz... juz now talk with a fren ..a buddy .. who i used to think i understand him but now i dun think i am anymore..or maybe not even in the past..haizz...he was once deeply in love with someone.. but it ends up in a bad ending ..very bad one...haizzz.. he was trying to let me fully understand him but i cant ..i really cant cause ppl hv different point of views .. i really wish to help him ..really.. but i cant help much ..didnt help any actually .. feeling myself so useless .. being a fren but cant help him when he needed me the most .. i am so useless..!!he now started to hate from his love and his life.. because of love and growth hate..deeper the love that is ..greater the hate there will be..this is wat happening to him.. haizz.. really dun wan this to happen but it happened..hope maybe time will heal everything maybe in another few years later .. things will be normal again..and hope i will still be there to see these things happen..Why does feelings exist in this world?How can i overcome the sad feelings?... he ask me but ... i dunno how to answer..maybe no one can answer... or maybe there isnt any answer... is just how one thinks tat's all ..maybe .. maybe..i will seek for it until i die ..seeking for the truth answer tat a lot of ppl ask me...

"Answers in this world are they right ? Do they exist? Is there any right or wrong in this world ?.. or there isnt ? right answer is just an answer that majority of ppl that agree it.. wrong answer is just an answer that majority of ppl dun agree with....if this is wat is right or wrong den it far away from wat i am seeking of... far far away..."

"Love and Hate... is just one line apart .. if u mistaken one step the person u love the most will be the person u hate the most... ppl that hate others... i think they are great...cause for us these normal ppl..we already hardly love someone where got time to hate... but them they already surpass the love and started to hate ...arent they great?..If there isnt any hate ..how do we show there is any love.. if there isnt any hate , all the love will be the same..and will not be so unique as it is now..HAte is harder then love...more harder ... more painful ..not to the person u hate but to urself...."

LiFE iS A mESs....foR mE

2007-09-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

haizzz my depressed time come again....dun why recently ..juz feeling cannot do anything right...holiday start .. den plan on a class chalet den can even plan it right ... a bit mess up the whole thing... haizz..den planing to do smtg on this holiday den because somethings happened den the whole feeling gone... gone no where ..can find it now... juz finish planing up the mess chalet thing... den thinking of someone now...someone that i miss so much but actually juz been seperate for a while..some maybe noe who i refer to ..but some will never get who is it....i hope the one that i am thinking of now ..noe i am thinking and thinking of me also..that is wat i hope .i really hope...maybe i am in the river again... maybe .. maybe... these few days ...dunno isit i think too much or something else..feeling very very very down...thinking bout frens and family ...thinking about how will make things right...or there maybe will not be any right or wrong is just depending how u look at it...haizz den went back to klg ..meet up some old frens... they ask me got galfren liao ma?...den i say no ..den they say my mouth too flirt so gals dun like...is it like tat?..haizzz or juz maybe is i not handsome enough? i think the later part is more true..haizzz..i am juz not good looking enough to let gals accept me.haizz..i really wish to hv a galfren now..really ... really feel to share my life with someone..really feel like taking good care of someone.really feel like someone i can seek for when i hv some secrets or troubles to tell..really wish that u can be that someone...really...haizzz..

"LoVEs"

love is sweet , love is bitter,
love make me be like a fool,
love make me be on the top of the world yet the bottom,
love gives me life and bring me to death....
why is love in this world...why is something so miserable assist..
but if it is not assist nothing will be alive...
love are roses ..look good , smells good but if not be careful ..it HURTS!!!!

HOlloW........

2007-08-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

IS been a while since i blog..cause nthg much 2 blog... but today too xian liao.. two more days 2 HAP exam and havent study yet... not feel like studying..open book den wan 2 slp..haha..i bet most of my frens are like tat also ..haha.. lets talk bout wat i been doin...

-Went baCK tO kLUAnG.....
WOOOO YEAHHH HAA!!! went back to my home town ... play a lot less studies haha...meet up lots of old frenzzz they seem doin quite well but some r quite depress also..cheer up babe ... next time i go back hope 2 see a fresh new u.. went back 4 like 5 days and almost everyday go out until 2-3 am den come back home..wan say sry 2 my parents for not been able 2 stay long at home 2 accompany u two..next time i will ... well is kind a hard 2 control acually.. when meet up with frens den can talk a lot ... REALLY TALK A LOT..somethings has changed , somethings will not changed.. feel great seeing some frens are back together.. haha... something wan to do but didnt do ..one regret actually..haizzz but... just let it be ba...

"Fate lets us be together as friends or more than that, we are now seperate in different parts in the world but our hearts are still link with that string fate bring us together with.I hope our friendship will not end until the day when we end our life....i hope when we grown up when we have children ..we can proudly them that we once have a very noble friendship that is eternal , that will not be forgotten ... that is far more presious than than anything..."

-ReADinG SomeONe BlOG
Seems like something quite big had happened in someone blog.....something very VERY confusing that not anyone can understand...even i cant ...haha..well life goes on..this is the first thing i hv 2 said..the world wun stop rotating because u are not feeling good..when smtg bad happens on someone maybe is not a bad thing at all ... try to view it from another angle.... bad things can be turn into good things also..just depends how u view it..maybe is juz an obstacle that nid to be get threw to move on in ur life ..maybe it is a stop 4 u to rest and look around u and kNow wat is really happening...maybe is juz a test that will make u better in life...

"Sometimes someone went too far, too fast .. fate will make them stop or slow down to take a look around .. try knowing what happens around u ... try getting out from what u are in..looking it in another angle .. an angle of an outsider but not insider... outsider will always look thing more clearly .. looking in that are u doing something foolish all the time or u really r doing wat u wan.. maybe u will find urself acting stupid when u look back but when u are in it .. u know this is wat u really wan 2 do... do what like ..do what u want..dont make too many regrets in life ... cause when u look back when u re dying ... u will really ask why dont i do it when i still can and now i am dying and cant do anything... Why every death prisoner cry when they are on the chair... even a merciless killer cried out like baby when they are being sentence... cause they ask juz one question to themself ..juz one question... "What have i done?"...."

mOviES

2007-07-22T01:47:00.000+08:00

FU-YOH!!!jUst came back from movie...yesterday watch Harry Porter den today go watch "nan er ben se"..harry porter is quite dissapointed..the action is ok but the ending is like ..walao ..they dun hv enough budjet izit?the ending so bad..cannot make it ah..is not as good as expected..den today watch "nan er ben se"..jackie chan has found himself some follower liao..but this 3 young man were beaten all the way from the beginning 2 the end .. den at the end..someone die ..the story is quite touching la..when u watch the show..think bout the reality we r in ..then think bout the things happening around u .. is like..ermm ..dunno how 2 say..just after watching this show .. like a lot of feelings come into my mind..haizz..den on the way back carinna call me .. she ask me wanna go 2 the jay chou thingy..but since no one is goin ..so i also not goin lo.. sry carinna..enjoy with ur frens ba.. dun think too much bout ur memories la.. later got 2 J fighting not gd ..haha jkjk..well next week got test still havent study yet.. die liao..now go study..bye bye..

SaD NeWS...

2007-07-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

Today heard from our lecturer tat our senior..Mr Donald had passed away this morning ... sad...he was like as noraml as us when we last saw him on ALP..but now he is gone forever..we will never gonna see him anymore..feel kind of strange..kind of like missing sthg....just strange..thinking of how fragile is our life..maybe i am blogging now then tmr i go out i will maybe be knock down by car..or shock by lightning..hard 2 say..life is unpredictable...maybe next time i go body check up i maybe will found out i hv some uncurable disease..(cause this few day i keep on having headache..).but dying is not a bad thing .. the onli thing tat is real important is how u spend ur life..?do u spend it with a lot of regret or the other way round..?did u spend ur life hapilly?although there will sure be some down in life but ..life still go on so y dun we live it happily rather den sadly..so i hope everyone who r in a down mood recently can forget bout ur sadness and live happily..life goes on..haha..HAPPY 4EVER everyone!!!!W

My wish to Donald...
Hope u r in the other world can be as happy as u r here or even more happier..
Hope u didnt left any regrets here and leave in a peaceful and happy way...
Hope u will b bless...We will miss u here..

DrEaMsSS..

2007-07-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

This few days keep on day dreaming ... dunno y..not onli day dreaming at night also dream..dream bout my past , my future..thinking of past ..so miss those times when me and my frens are together...so nice..playing ard ..duncare wat others think...den my buddies..sharing my troubles with them..they share theirs with me..comfort each others..den sthg else..a lot of things tat i miss...den my future..is like so close 2 me yet so far...is like an easy road yet also a road with a lot of obstacle..wishing a peaceful life but think is too boring...wishing an adventure life but scare cannot overcome the obstacle..is so contradictory..wat i wan ..i also dunno... just let fate decide..maybe i will be gone tmr ..maybe i will live until 100 years old..maybe i will be success..maybe i will be a failure..maybe..maybe..maybe...EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD EXIST FOR A REASON ... WAT IS MINE????Can someone tell me.....a nice song recomment to u all ..'memories"by backstreet boys..good..

oUr StoRY....

2007-07-07T22:25:00.001+08:00

"i am leaving ..."
"Wat?"
"i am leaving ..my dad wants me 2 further my studies overseas..."
"...then wat bout me?"
"i dun no....."
His mind wants him 2 leave but his heart wants him 2 stay..her mind told her 2 let him go but her heart refuse...both of them are lost...
"Y u didnt tell me earlier?"
"i scare u will be sad..."
" then y nOw?why on our anniversary?WHY?"
"I.. I .dunno ..i dunno wat to do ...arhhh!!!"(he cried)
"i am sry ..i just thinking of myself and neglected u..sry"
they hug each other and cried until both of them tired and sleep...

After telling her this, she change 180' ..she started 2 treat him very coldly..they hardly meet each other.everytime is always because of her busyness..he started 2 feel strange ..so he start doing something..through her frens ..he found out tat she hasnt been 2 work lately..since she is not working .. wat keeps her so busy?..he feel sthg fishy goin around..

One day , he follow her and finally found out wat happen......

One week b4 his leaving..he call her out..
"we havent seen each other 4 a long time.."
"i am busy with my work.."
"Y u lie?"
"huh?"
"u hv quit ur job long ago.."
"so u found out .."
"ya through ur frens ..but y u lie to me?WHY?"
"u wan 2 nOe the truth ? i tell u ... i am dating with another guy recently ..u noe him..he is ur best fren didnt he tell u?..haha..wat a shame, u call this frens..haha"
"Y?Y?"
"cause u are leaving ..u cannot take care of me anymore ..u r the one who choose 2 leave me ..not me..u r the one who ruin this relationship not me.."
"den i dun leave ..i stay here with u..pls dun do this to me.."
"sry ..is too late..after i stead with him...i found out tat he is better..haha..he makes me happier."
"but i thought u love me.."
"nOt any more.."
this is the last word she said 2 him ... but is she really this bad...
he uses the last week 2 tidy his feelings and pack himself .. prepare 2 leave town..

the night b4 leaving..her close fren call him..
"bad news..she commit suicide...she is now in hospital"
"wat ?why?..?"(he is confuse)
he didnt went 2 the hospital ...cause he is still angry with her..
He left....

after a month of staying overseas, he come back ..(holiday n birthday)
this trip is not happy at all...cause he found out the real truth behind everything ..
" i am back!!"
" u got a package ..is from V .. she wans u 2 hv it..is her last gift to u...."
"wat is it?"
"open it and u will know everything.."
"oh my god...wat hv i done?"
inside the box is all the photo tat they hv taken..and a letter..
the letter says
"J, i am sry ..all i hv done is 4 ur good.i didnt change my heart ever..i always love u..i go out with K is because i wan u 2 forget me....but after i met and u say u will stay 4 me..i noe u will not forget me..unless something big happen..i decide 2 leave this world so tat u will forget the actual me and let me stay in ur heart..live well after i am gone ..dun come to find me cause i am always in ur heart..i hope to see u before i leave the world ..maybe at the hospital maybe..maybe..i love u .sorry.."
he didnt fuifill her last wish...he is not heartless he is just a fool..a fool tat make his life and her life miserable...
6 years later he finish his study and come back home...at the station he saw someone very familiar..is V..the doctors manage 2 get her back...beside her is a guy ... K...she looks happy..he decided 2 let her go cause he thinks he will onli make her life more miserable..they didnt meet each other after tat..not once ..never...
actually in her heart she still loves him ..but she wans him gd so she left him.
actually in his heart he still loves her .. but he wans her happy so he left her.

both of them are fool and saint .. sacrifice themselves to make the other happy but make ownself miserable..why cant they be together and both of them will be happy? y always like tat?y everytime the one u luv the most will not be with u?WHY?WHY?WHY?

070707

2007-07-07T22:19:00.000+08:00

haizzz this date is supposely be very special but..i spend it boringly..i stay at home all day..on9 chatting ..dunno talk wat ..talk crap onli...haha..also got talk serious thing la..haha...supposely got go sing ktv one but because of smtg..it is canceled....sad sia...just now my cousin call me go ang mo kio play but my bro say too late liao .so cannot go also...walao..like so no life lo....someone birthday is coming havent buy present yet..dunno buy wat....but got a bit clues liao...tmr go queensway shopping with my cousin ..see wat can buy ..haha.nthg much can write liao.gonna write a story later...so because today is sooo special..i wish all ppl who read or not read my blog happy 4ever..and most importantly ..world peace...!!!!!

wHo aM I?

2007-07-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

.......feeling a bit down lately..dun ask why.. just feeling down..feeling tat ...i am lost in this complicated world...so complicated until i start to dunno who i am ...who i am dealing with..who cares bout me who dun...who i care .. who i dun..the hormes inside my body is trying harder and harder 2 let me fall in love but my mind just cant cooperate with it...my heart goes 2 the north but my brain wants me to go to the south....LOST.....CRY...DOWN....iz it the right time 2 do the thing i am doing right now?actually wat am i doing i also dunno.....CAN sOmeOne help me 2 bring back the old me....the funny me....tat me...WHERE R U? COME BACK!!!!..is there anyone out there tat i can speak 2?tat can support me when i am weak..and share my happiness when i am happy....i been searching and searching .but once i nearly grab u ..u flew away...like the smoke in the air...like a dream tat will never come to reality..........like my life...

A lOVe SonG

2007-06-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

隔海恋

词：彭俊良曲：？？？

秋天的落叶冬天的白雪

孤单的季节寂寞的夜

看着房里枯萎的花

想起当年愿望

你答应我的天长地久都去了哪

你的背影不断浮现

想念着你却无能为力

命运的安排残酷的现实

忍心的接受放开手

Chorus:

＃我望着窗外的月你是否也会看见

隔着一片海爱恋是否就注定决裂

你说你好累难道我就不会

为了你我放手希望你会好好过

依赖着时间把伤痕复原

傻傻的盼望你会回来这边

但是知道这些都是一些安慰

安慰自己所做都不后悔＃

抽屉里泛黄的照片

纪念着我们的重前

穿着你送我的毛衣

但却感觉不到温暖

溺爱的感觉已不在

#Chorus#

LoNg TimE No BLog liao

2007-06-20T19:09:00.000+08:00

Wah long time no blog liao...recently busy.... dont ask do wat but just busy....last week go back kluang ..meet a lot of old frenz...talk bout a lot things ..think bout quite a lot of past and future...even talk until 3 in the morning ...haha... although is tired but is fun... then the next day went 2 catch some movies...quite nice...haha...den on sunday i sent a fren go back...he told me some things .... i thought a lot ,i onli can tell him ,one song"zhui hou de teng ai"...just let it be normal la...everything will be normal....one week pass...the other weekend i went back again..cause is father's day me n my siblings bring my dad and grandfather 2 eat a big feast..but after tat bad things happen ..i kena food poisoning....arhhhhh so suffering.....but quite ok liao..now looking forward 2 the BBQ on thursday..haha

WaLao xIaN SIa.....!!!

2007-05-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

Today very xian...get up late in the morning ... have 2 chiong 2 bus-stop .then reach bus-stop 23 arrived but packed with ppl cannot go up..then wait another bus packed also... really F lo... then got on to the third bus..reached sch around 8.40am....then hv HAP quiz ..write a lot of crap... dunno do wat...sure die this time...then after quiz come out LT ..bcause of CCN day the whole sch is full of ppl ..damn... crowded..hv 2 squease everywhere....then go TM eat lunch ..bought a salad...it is damn not good...but still forced myself 2 finished it cause dun wan 2 waste food...then go free access lab teach three gals how 2 do lab.... i am like so lebih there..like not much help 2 them.... then fool around with aloy.. like 2 idiot...haha..=X..then b4 leaving lab they say dun wan 2 go sing K next week feeling more xian when heard tat..bevin call 2 study at expo this sunday..dunno goin or not..nid 2 see the feeling tat day..sry bevin..hehe..=X..then later at night ..finally hv smtg happy happen ..i met my cousins...who i havent met 4 a long time..cause everyone are busy with own business..we hv a family gathering talk bout life recently..then decided 2 go K but Kbox is packed n the price are like F expensive....then decide not go..then go pool center...but it is packed...shit de lo..den come back home dunno do wat...xian sia..feeling so no life sia..term test comin soon dunno when wan 2 start prepare..still dun hv the feeling 2 study le...still feel like on vacation..aiya...DUNNO WAT 2 DO...!!! CAN SOMEONE GUIDE ME....omg...by the way MK birthday is around the corner..so wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! and always HAPPY..hahaha..=)

Thinking of Past and Future...

2007-05-13T14:53:00.000+08:00

Times really flies....i had started my sch for 3 weeks oledi...n form 6 will start next week ....my frenz in klg will hv 2 go 2 sch starting next week..i wonder how they feel..nervous?haha...There was this night i was thinking bout my past n all those stupid mistake n regret i had done...laughing myself......thinking why am i tat silly tat time.....but past is past, all of these had past for few years oledi ..everything will onli be my memories.....tat i regret....well... lets think bout future ...it is still pretty confusing...not sure wat i wan 2 be when i hv gratuated.....about my study now i think i still can cope with it cause is just smtg tat i had learn in my sec sch but the onli different is just tat it is in english...i think i hv 2 improve my english a lot cause there r still a lot of term i dun understand right now....aiya..feeling life is so meaningless now...nothing much 2 do.... hope there will be some excitement in my life in the future soon.....feeling my PR is not very good ..kinda like always offenced ppl then didnt realise it...so i would like 2 say sorry here 2 all those ppl i hv offenced in the past, now, and in the future....hehe...=-)

JUst got stephanie Sun new album...it is nice.....waiting 2 buy SHE new album but no money now...hv 2 save money first.....

Still havent watch spiderman 3....so xian...cannot find anyone 2 accompany me......so who wan 2 watch spiderman 3?....lets go together lo.....haha....=)

half a month in singapore....

2007-05-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

Haizz..i left kluang half a month liao.i miss my fren so much..that day they went 2 watched movie...do u know how much i wanted 2 be there ..but i cant cause i am in singapore now le....haizzz..but luckily i make a lot of new and fun frens here....that is something good...

lost bout life ...had join basketball but they havent call me 4 try out..havent pass up the student abbassador form ..hope the interview will pass...dunno whether i can be a good monitor tat my class can depends on..dunno whether i hv offence anyone and i didnt know myself..confuse n lost.....

going to visit my aunt n uncles this weekend..nothing better 2 do....accompany my sis 2 go cut hair...laugh at her after tat..haha..life is boring ..it seems like i dun hv a motive 2 live....but life goes on..wish everyone who knows me will live happily n carefree.....good luck fellow frens...

My new life in TP!!!

2007-04-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!! Long time no see !!!My sch has officially started on last monday le (actually i hv been to sch since 18 of May to attend my orientation week )The first day i got there i was totally alone n scare n nervous because it is a new enviroument to me..but after i met my classmates all of these fear gone like smoke ..my classates r as active as me so we just click like that but the gals is like a bit "nei xiang"so they arent so high when we play games but i am sure that they will become as crazy as us in the future..but all of them hv team spirit cause one time we r suppose to go 2 the course gathering but because it was raining and the gathering is very lame so we decided to "cabut"n all of our class "cabut"together ..haha..arent that united..haha...i love my class it is so full of life n energy..i hope we will hv more class gathering in the future so that our relationship will become stronger..haha..but i havent forgot all my frens in klg n those who hv gone study in kl ..i miss u all so much .... hope 2 see u all soon..got a lot of things to share with u all....but least time...i will go back to klg when i hv holidays .. but it will be in june i think...so hope to see u all then...haha...take care everyone.

Miracles do happen in this world!!

2007-04-12T22:01:00.000+08:00

YEah !!! Yippie yahoo!! i finally got accept by poly .. i receive their letter this morning and i was totally in the top of the world<(idioms)..haha..they offer me diploma in biomedical informatics & engineering .. although i am not quite sure wat it is but is still something better than business because this subject is something i know a little bit cause i study bio when i was in form 4 & 5..so at least is something i know ..but if for business ..i hv never touch it..it is like a new toy to me tat i nid time 2 discover it..hehe..so i decided 2 go to poly study ..haha.. but a bit sad la cause nid 2 leave my frens liao..aiya ..so unbearable..but "tian wu bu shan zhi yan xi"so let just be cool man..haha..so i wish all my fren in kluang 2 be as happy as always and be as carefree as u can ..cause preassure will cause depression .. haha..good luck 2 u all man..( i dun mention name cause too many liao) so u know who u r ..take care urself at kluang ok? dun giv urself too much stress....if got problems use MSN 2 contact me i will be ur listener..haha..speak out and u will be more comfortable..haha..so take care my frens...i will miss u all ..n hope u all will miss me also...keep in touch..haha..

Yeah !! I am back !!

2007-04-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

Well , few weeks ago i was hit by a very big dissapointment but i am fine right now..(i guess)..i am going 2 study in singapore after all, but not the course tat i was planning 2 study(Chemical engineering).. i am doing diploma in management studies .. which is in business line..most of my fren ask me why i giv up in chemical engineering ... well tat is because i am thinking this way now liao... if i do chem. eng. ,after i gratuate i will get a job n get paid..n if i do management studies i will also get a job n get paid after i gratuate..so wat is the different?the onli different is i will take 3 years 2 get my bachelors in business but it will take me at least 5 years 2 get bachelor in engineering..so i choose the shorter way.Well maybe this is the way i comfort myself from not taking chem. eng.Well i hope all of my frens and family can support me with my decision..and wish me good luck...

CRY !!!!!

2007-03-30T14:06:00.000+08:00

Damn it !! I am rejected by all singapore poly ! Damn it !!! What the hell is going on?...Shit !!Am i really not good enough or others are all too good ? i really dont know now... Shit!! i am very comfuse about my life now ..how will my future go???? What shall i do?????AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

ThE BiGgesT AQuaRiUm IN tHe WoRld!!1

2007-03-28T13:54:00.000+08:00

1."Okiniwa aquarium"(direct translated) open in NOV 2002 is known as the largest aquarium in the world.You can discover more than 260 kinds fishes in this aquarium.The biggest tank can fit around 20 thousands fishes in it included 2 whale sharks. The aquarium also have different spesies of tropical fishes.I definitely will go there once in my life.It so beautiful.Nature is incredible.

waiting....!!!!

2007-03-23T17:47:00.000+08:00

"Waiting"is something very boring..when u r waiting i suggest u not 2 watch the time b'cause it will only make time go slower..i am now waiting 4 my poly reply n i feel time is passing very slowly..i am also scare tat the poly tat i hv apply dun accept me cause there will be gone 4 the fastest path 2 my future...if really so unlucky i will just hv 2 stay on n moving on my life in here...but tat is not wat i wan ...i wan a peaceful life in singapore tat i can be with my siblings...but if i stay here there will just be me....haizzzz..now i just hope i will get my reply soon n i hope is a good news.....haizzz...

慌神....

2007-03-11T01:45:00.000+08:00

很久没用华文blog了,今天就用华文blog一下吧.....最近对人生有点不知所措...开始越来越不懂自己是谁....越来越感到人生的无趣....我很清楚这是一段过渡期,但就是不知怎么面对它....挫折让我感到人生的低潮.....有时静下来想一想,做人不要想这么多就会好过一点,但有些事不是你不想它就能解决的.....所以还是逼不得已要去想,去做...想到未来,有点茫然...读完书出来就找工作..过后就成家...过后就生子....到最后就只是等死了......人生就是这样的(在我眼里) .... 是不是我想太多了呢?还是我真的看透人生?....哈哈....有时想想自己真的有点一无是处..真的是我不够好吗?还是只是别人太强?(我正在找回我以前carefree的性格,"它"到底跑去哪里了?)..不惯啦...这里有一首我最近迷上的一首歌..介绍给大家吧..!!希望大家喜欢.. =-)

"超人" 演唱者:张卫健

明明是一个脆弱不堪的灵魂
却为你心甘情愿变身为超人
爱的筋疲力尽才明白我并不是无所不能
也许因为我的天资不够
算不出来什么时候会分
肉体凡身凭什么想要你爱我一生
逝去的青春就像我们
曾经留给对方的伤痕
两个人无话不说再到最後陌生
我想我都可以去忍
路上的灯看著我们
冒著雨在情节里飞奔
希望有个人
能明白我的眼泪和我的後半生
(原来我一开始就陷的那么深)
陪著你走过五彩斑烂的世界
不代表我就拥有过你的一切
谢谢你的告别
可以带给我这么多感觉
也许因为我的天资不够
体会不到你对我的体贴
但是可能你对我
并没有那么了解
逝去的青春就像我们
曾经留给对方的伤痕
两个人无话不说再到最後陌生
我想我到可以去忍
路上的灯看著我们冒著雨在情节里飞奔
希望有个人
能明白我的眼泪和我的後半生
原来我一开始就陷的那么深

Devil It's own...

2007-03-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

Well , this is a post that i write in a boring mood.."DEVIL"..some'thing' that is known by all homosapiens that is an evil thing...but when we think back ... who invent 'DEVIL" this word?who gave it "its"meaning?All these is done by homosapiens also...but if we dun hv any evil in our own mind how can we know / invent this word n' giv it 'its' meaning?Everyone now in this world hv some evil in their heart..no doubts...These is so call 'sins'...if u try 2 get rid of these sins... it is very hard cause all sins r done by emotion, so if u try 2 get rid of 'sins', u must first get rid ur emotion n' feelings first..but by then u r not longer a human cause human live with feelings n' emotion...strange ?But true ..this is why no one is perfect in this world....(Well, all these is only my own opinion ..so if anyone who read this hv any objection that's ur opinion..so .no hard feelings ..ok?)..HAHAHA..

mY fRiEnd..

2007-02-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Since he has spoken through the comments, i shall give him an introduction here.. HE , my good pal..Ken.. he is a not quite tall and not quite handsome guy..haha(no la, joking la,, u wont blame me right ?hehe..) ok , back 2 the topic.. i known him since form 1 (actually i had heard his name when i was in primary school , from my basketball frenzz..because of his popularity in the basketball zone he was admired by quite a lot of gals ..haha..) i trully become frens with him is when form 1 through hong liang introduction .. because i was quite a fan on basketball that time ..we become good fren in just a click...maybe this is so call the fate..We spend our secondary school time 2gather in quite a harmony time.. of course we hav quarrel but we quite understand that no one is perfect so .. u know... but after these school time separated .. he went 2 study in Inti and i maybe going 2 singapore..but this doesnt mean tat our friendship end here .. cause we r buddy.. is harder 2 find a true fren then finding a galfren...so i will appreciate this friendship..and maybe our children will become frens again...at the end , i wish u good in studies n' FRIENDSHIP FOREVER!!!!!

2007-02-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

Ghost Rider Trailer (2006)

cool movie me n my fren , ken watched it when cny.it is quite a nice show ,good effect but the story is not very good la .. (sorry 2 be true)..haha .. LOOK INTO MY EYES..YOU ARE GUILTY!!!HAHAHA!!!

the mistake on cny

2007-02-24T18:30:00.001+08:00

So cny is over .. so sad ..happy memory and regret also..i been through a very happy cny with all of my cousins,brothers and sisters..but the only regret is i made a very silly mistake on this happy season and make someone not happy...because of my playfulness.i make fun on a fren on msn and she found out about it .. as a result of tat she is angry ..very angry... i am very sorry 2 her .. i wish she could accept mine apologize when she saw this ... i am sorry.. we r sorry....hope u will be happy 4ever..

2007-02-08T00:24:00.000+08:00

nice songs

DyInG...

2007-02-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

Recently there r a lot of sad things happen around me.... first, most the ppl know weilun pass away liao..haizzzz....so sad .. such a beautiful n nice gal just pass away like this....is like in chinese"天妒英才"...i feel sad 4 her family...then my 大姑 pass away also...sad~~~every year she came 2 our house 2 拜年but this year she wont..we will miss her .... is a kind of sad n strange feeling...is like somebody around u just dissapear n never come any more.....but this is life la i think....."生老病死"we will all been through it but just how r we going to manage it only...i hope i will have a peaceful life...but not everything can be decide so early in one life so let just hope god dun play any difficult thing in my life......n one more thing which is onli the happy thing recently ..which is chinese new year is around the corner...haha..i like cny.cause there will be a lot of food 2 eat and i can gather with my cousin n uncle...n most of all is the ang pow lo... haha..joking la...hope u all can hav a happy chinese new year!!!!!!!Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!!!!

S.M.K.T.H.O. chinese society

2007-01-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

'family' photo

well this is a society that had been establish long time ago ...well u cant call it a society when u r in it .. it is actually a big family ..tat is wat we use 2 said 2 our juniors...but true it gave me a kind of warm feeling while i am with those frens ...although we were busy all the time doing activities...but we hav fun during the works..it quite memorable.... but the only regret on our badge is tat we cant go 4 the learning tour ..so sad...but hope our juniors can establish our will and not forget us....then leave this msg 4 those who r in this chinese society in the future ..try 2 make contact with every chinese in school and greater our force...cause we r extinct''ing''...

L.O.V.E.

2007-01-06T12:36:00.000+08:00

L.O.V.E. something inside my heart......

L-lonely
O-obsess
V-vacant
E-ego

one day i slept on my bed but suddenly felt an empty feeling in my heart , i dun no wat is tat..but this klnd of sadness is the first time .... i nearly cried out ... this emptiness is very scary..
it makes me felt lonely..alone..

then i am obsess with something .... but it gone away just like this when i woke up in one morning.... strange ..

then sometimes i cant sleep my mind i full of things but my heart is vacant.... nothing much 2 think for a youngster ..... it just bother me till i cant sleep......

ego .. i believe most of the guys hav this weakness .. i myself also but my ego just gone away like this sometimes... i dun hav any ideas 2 do anything sometimes but sometimes when my ego is back i hav my idea back ......

hard to explain wat i am thinking now ...maybe most of u wont understand wat i wrote cause i sometimes also dunno wat am i doing or who i am .......but i just go along with my feelings ..silly ..maybe u will think like tat but i am this kind of people......

Last day on 2o06

2007-01-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

The last day on 2006 was boring .. i woke up in the morning hoping that i could have a wonderful day but i didnt...the moment i woke up my dad drag me to test drive cause i am having my license soon ....but it was the first time i drive car ...as a result of tat....i was scolded terribly....but tat is the first thing ...then when i ask my frens to go out 4 countdown party none of them r free... that makes me more sad....i spending my my last day in 2006 just playing computer games ....so boring......but luckily i met some of my frens on msn at late night....n we countdown using msn..a bit weird la but is better then nothing....any how the new year has come ...the more harder we hav 2 work...colleges, studies, works .......must "pia"liao!!!....hope everyone of u hav a nice and lucky year.....Lastly , Happy New Year to all of u!!!!!!

<家>

2006-12-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

<家>,本是一个很温暖的地方....但家家有本难念的经...每个家庭里一定都会有一些烂苹果和一些好苹果.....在我们家就有两个烂苹果....他们两人加起来都快要一百岁的人了却一点也不知道羞耻...这么大的人了还要父母来照顾,一点羞耻心都没有,不养父母就算了但还要父母来养一辈子,这也太不象话了吧!....男的一把年级了还一无是处,吊儿浪当,整天不顾家人跑出去享受人生.....敢问一家之主是这样当的吗?...女的更死....整天说家人不关心她...埋怨这个,埋怨那个..搞得整家人都好像欠了她一样...她也不想想,这么大的人了是不是应该学会独立...学会照顾自己....咳...一个家本来可以很温暖很开心的,可是却因为这些烂苹果而搞得鸡犬不宁.....有时真的很希望没有他们的存在....但始终是一家人....."忍一忍"这是我妈常说的....现在就只希望家合万事兴...一切平平安安的过去就好了......

一个凄美的爱情故事......

2006-12-21T15:02:00.000+08:00

这是一个平常的上课天,只不过今天的太阳特别晒........
她是一个普通的中五学生,但她将会经历一段感人的恋情.....
和平常一样放学钟声响起了.....她拿起手机打给了比她年长两岁的男友.....
"嘟嘟...."
"哈喽,你在哪里?我放学了,快来载我回家,天气很热啊!我要你在十分钟内赶到!"
"好,等我一下...."
十五分钟过后他还没来........
"嘟嘟...."她再次打给他.....但没人接电话.....
二十分钟后,他终于来了...
"喂,上车啦,去吃午餐了..."
"你....."(她哭了)
"你知不知到现在几点了....我等你等了半个钟头了.....你不内疚吗?"
"你到底去了哪里?你到底有没有把我放在心里...."她边说边哭.
他们这时只交往了两个星期..
他抱着她说"对不起....".这是他第一次看到女生哭....也是他第一次说对不起....
这样的生活过了一个月,她终于受不了了..
"你到底爱不爱我?为什么每次约会你都迟到然后就只说声对不起,也不给我一个解释....你到底爱不爱我?"
"我要得不是礼物,我要的只是你的信任...难道这都不能给我吗?"
"对不起....."这是他对她说的第九十九次对不起......
就这样他们分手了......她没有联络他...他也没找她.....
直到.......两个月后....她终于忍不住打给他了.......
但这一通电话改变了她对他的失望...她终于知道他迟到的原因了....
"喂,请问凯在吗?"
一个哭泣的声音回答说"他..他..在医院....."
"啊!!发生了什么事?"
"你是莉吧?凯很想见你....你还是去医院吧..."
她便马上赶去医院.....在那凯的母亲给了她一个盒子...然后便带她去见凯了.....
在病房里,凯的母亲告诉了她一切....
"凯一生下来心脏就有孔.....他不是故意迟到的....他把全部的解释都写在盒子里了...你自己看吧.."
莉打开了盒子...
第一张照片是当时他第一次迟到的时候....
他那时一接到电话就马上赶出门要去接莉放学....但一到门口心马上痛了起来....就这样他迟到了...也说了他第一次的"对不起"
接下来照片都是说着他迟到的原因..但唯一不同的是他越来越消瘦了...
她一边翻着照片一边哭泣...直到最后一张.....这写着:
"嗨!莉,我知道你还生我的气,我不求你原谅我,我只想要你开心....其实以前不告诉你原因是不想你担心, 所以只好把所有的事写在照片上..每次我迟到都不是故意的,只是我身体不中用,来不了.让你难过了....当你看到这些照片时我可能已经不在了...在这里我想再次对你说那第一百次"对不起"希望你可以开开心心的生活....如果有机会希望下辈子我们还有愿做朋友...."
她跪在他床边,哭了....
"我不要做你的朋友,我要做你的妻子....."她看着那第一百张照片说........照片里的凯虽然已经消瘦如一根竹竿但还是勉强的挤出他对她的微笑......
"嘟.............." 医生冲了进来......
这也就结束了这段情.................

人生!!!!

2006-12-21T14:20:00.000+08:00

告诉我,我到底怎么了?为什么每天醒来都在重复昨天所做的事...........
生活如此烦闷,目标一片茫然,难道这就是我的人生吗?
我不想就这样过一生.......
天啊!!!!!!可以给我一点鼓励让我有更精彩的人生吗?
疑问,疑问,还是疑问?我的生活充满了许许多多的疑问.......
有谁可以给我这一切一切的答案......
我在寻找着这个人......请快点出现吧!!!!!!!
解救我!!把我从这个无聊的世界带走吧!!!!!!
但是我心里很清楚,这一切的一切是很难改变的,唯有面对它才能克服它.......
我需要力量,我要用这力量来克服我人生中所有的障碍......
希望我的家人,朋友能给我这些力量...好让我能更勇敢的面对这人生........
我不乞求什么,只是希望所有事能顺顺利利.....平平安安........
其实也没什么,就想宪哥说的"人生(参)嘛,就是比当归大!!!!!"哈哈!!!!!
最重要就是要开心过一生........
"人生如戏,戏如人生"...........

ESP was SO fun wish 2 hav more!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

me n meiqi

me , jean & tien hui

GIdeon gambling......

Few day ago i went 2 a camp name ESP ..First i think it is just a youth camp as usual..but..when i reach there..woooo.is was like huge ... there r like three hundreds over people...is like huge ...i am totally high when i saw so many people especially most of them r girls...haha ..joking..the camp was nice..it teach me a lot of things ...i learn a lot from it .... the paster was funny also ...they teach us a lot about our social life and about our future...but the most important thing on this camp is tat..i really get know about myself...so happy on this camp...beside tat i also get 2 know more frens n get 2 know one of my former frens a lot...meiqi ... she is a nice gal ..she is not tat talkactive when i first met her when i was primary 6 she is very quiet...but when we hav the gathering early this year .. she change a lot .. she started 2 be friendly 2 everyone... then when we r at the camp i get know her a lot n' all i can tell from her is she is a very nice gal n' a good fren also...the camp gives me a lot of knowledge but there is one thing tat it didnt gives me ....where am i going 2 study after this????? i am so lost ...i hav plans before this but every thing change...dun know how la.....all tat i can do now is 2 apply 4 every college n' see which one hav frens wan 2 go with me .... so many plans 2 make ...tired of life .....haizzzzz......well ...life goes on .....

SPM over SOOOOOOO shock

2006-12-08T11:48:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!!!!!! SPM OVER!!!!!!!!!finally our dark days have past .......thinking of the days we study ....it is so stress ....now we r finally free ....i hav a party with my frens day after SPM .....it so fun , i like 2 hav more but time fly away fast ..but we hav a lot of fun la..and i am going 2 Port Dickson with my frens tmr so cool .. but thinking of future...a bit lost....but dun think it first la ....hav fun first .... we r young we must hav fun........HAHAHA!!!!!!!!!@@@@@@@@@####

kLuanG In tHe MoRNiNG

2006-10-21T13:12:00.000+08:00

Tat day i woke up early in the morning n' went out "da pao"with my father , this is the scene i saw in Kluang street. IS EMPTY! this is about 7:45 in the morning .. is everyone still at sleep?In my memory when i was young, the street is crowded in the morning already .but why hav this change?Have everyone forgot tat early birds always catch the best worms?

ThE MIsTAke OF GOd

Sad..=(

after a year...=))

exam exam EXAMSSSS!!!!!

ThE MIsTAke OF GOd: A lOVe SonG#links

back to life...=))))

WOW......

To my BEloved GrandmA...=)

The END??? of all??

Gong Xi Gong Xi FA da Cai!!!

the BIG WEDDING...=)

Long long long time no see...=)

Labour day , MOthers DAY , NiCky BDae... haha =) part 2

Labour day , MOthers DAY , NiCky BDae... haha =) part 1

Attachment.....

鱼与熊掌

Is been A WHILE...=)

Merry Xmas and HappY NewYEAR!!!

CCN day ....

最后的疼爱......

TAGGED by HIANG...

林宇中-抢玫瑰(feat: jj)

说好的幸福呢 ......

文。。。

misunderstanding....

ITs NOT FAIR!!!!

Target.....=P

Hmmm....

nightmare part 1

messy..

wHy Like ThAT?????

BLEED IT OUT...!!!!!

昨天今天明天.....

YEAH!!!!

SAD........

StuPIDDDD.....

StoRY paRT 2.......

背 影

A looonnnggg day...

weekENDS....

bOreD....

new life...

Miss YOU..

离去

LeavING

缘

Story...

DreaM...

chaNGES...

This SEM break

finish EXAM !!!!....

VAcant

Chinese NEW year!!!! 2008.....

BUsy & saD week

First duty in Pace...

2oo8!!!

HOLIDAYSSSS!!!!!

HAppY 18 BirtHDAY to Me , mYseLF and I....

BraND nEw....

I aM nOT a PirATE....

O-Hai-Yo-Go-Zai-Mas...

WoOhOO Man is BacK!!!...

古来成败原关数,天下英雄大可知...

WoohOO!!!!...

WhY SUffeR???

LoveSS anD HatEsS

LiFE iS A mESs....foR mE

HOlloW........

mOviES

SaD NeWS...

DrEaMsSS..

oUr StoRY....

070707

wHo aM I?

A lOVe SonG

LoNg TimE No BLog liao

WaLao xIaN SIa.....!!!

Thinking of Past and Future...

half a month in singapore....

My new life in TP!!!

背影